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Every time I extend love to those close to me, I ensure they remain a priority in my life. I invest my time, energy, and affection in my friends and family, always striving to be there for them in their moments of need. However, amidst this constant giving, I find myself yearning for the same consideration in return.

It is not that I seek grand gestures or overt displays of affection, but rather the simple reassurance that I am a priority in their lives too. I crave this reciprocal love, yet often I am left uncertain of my standing in their hearts. This ambiguity sometimes leaves me feeling drained, as I endeavour to remain strong and resilient.

Life often presents us with moments where our deepest desires remain unfulfilled, leaving us grappling with feelings of brokenness and isolation. These moments can be incredibly challenging, particularly when it feels like there is no one to hear our silent cries. It’s during these times that we must find ways to navigate through the emotional labyrinth and come out stronger on the other side.

Acknowledging Emotions

The first step in dealing with unfulfilled desires and inner turmoil is to acknowledge your emotions. It’s okay to feel disappointed, hurt, or broken. These feelings are valid and are a natural response to unmet expectations. Suppressing these emotions can lead to further distress and even physical health issues. Allow yourself to sit with your feelings and recognize them without judgment.

Finding Solace in Solitude

While being alone can amplify feelings of isolation, solitude can also be a powerful tool for healing. Use this time to reconnect with yourself. Engage in activities that bring you peace and joy, whether it’s reading, writing, meditating, or simply taking a walk in nature. Solitude provides an opportunity to reflect on your desires and understand why they hold such significance in your life.

Expressing Yourself

When it feels like no one is there to listen, expressing your emotions through creative outlets can be incredibly therapeutic. Write down your thoughts in a journal, paint your feelings, or compose music. These creative expressions can serve as a release valve for the emotional pressure building up inside you. Moreover, they can help you process your emotions and gain clarity on your situation.

Cultivating Self-Compassion

In times of distress, we can be our harshest critics. It’s essential to cultivate self-compassion and treat yourself with the same kindness you would offer a dear friend in a similar situation. Remind yourself that it’s okay to have unfulfilled desires and that you are not defined by these moments of pain. Practice self-care routines that nourish your body, mind, and spirit.

Embracing Impermanence

One of the most profound lessons in life is the impermanence of all things. Just as joy is fleeting, so is sorrow. Your current state of brokenness is not permanent. Embracing this concept can provide a sense of hope and resilience. Trust that, in time, your circumstances will change, and you will find new paths and opportunities that align with your true desires.

Building Resilience

Unfulfilled desires and emotional pain can, paradoxically, be sources of immense personal growth. These experiences teach us resilience and fortify our inner strength.

When desires remain unfulfilled and you feel broken inside, it’s important to remember that you are not alone in your struggles, even if it feels that way. By acknowledging your emotions, finding solace in solitude, expressing yourself, seeking alternative support, cultivating self-compassion, embracing impermanence, and building resilience, you can navigate through these challenging times. These moments of inner turmoil, though painful, can ultimately lead to deeper self-awareness and a more profound sense of peace.

Life has a way of throwing curveballs when we least expect them. It's not always the big, life-altering events that shake us to our core. Sometimes, it's the small, seemingly insignificant moments that leave a mark. I find myself deeply affected by these tiny hurts, and I must admit, they often bring me to tears.At first, I was embarrassed by my sensitivity. I questioned why small things had such a profound impact on me. Why does an offhand comment from a friend linger in my mind for days? Why does a minor setback at work feel like a mountain to climb? The answer is simple: because I care. I care deeply about the people around me, about my work, and about the world I live in.But life is life, and it has to go on. Despite the small hurts, the tears, and the moments of doubt, I know I must forge ahead. This journey isn't about eliminating the pain but learning to navigate through it. It's about acknowledging that these feelings are valid but not letting them dictate my path.

You find yourself constantly second-guessing your actions, desperately trying to avoid unpredictable anger and disapproval. The stress and anxiety become overwhelming, causing you to act out in frustration and sadness, displaying behaviors you never imagined would become a part of you. This environment has turned you into a shadow of your former self, reacting to the toxicity in the worst possible ways, simply as a means of survival.

One day, she met a man who seemed perfect in every way. He was charming and attentive, making her feel special and wanted. She dared to hope that this time, things would be different. She poured her heart into the relationship, giving all the love she had, nurturing it with care and unwavering devotion.

For a while, it seemed her dream had come true. He appeared to care for her, and her heart soared with hope. She supported him through difficult times and celebrated his successes, believing that their bond was strong. She thought she saw love in his eyes, but as the days turned into months, the warmth faded. He became distant and cold, often blaming her for things that went wrong, accusing her of being too much or not enough.

Whenever she tried to express her feelings, her tears were dismissed as mere drama. Her emotions were belittled and labelled as complaints. When she was sad, he would snap, "Can't you be happy on your own?" Each of these remarks cut her deeply, making her feel as though her very essence was a burden.

Despite her efforts to salvage the relationship, he eventually left, blaming her for their problems and walking away without a backward glance. She was devastated, feeling the familiar sting of abandonment and the unjust burden of blame. It felt as though every ounce of love she had given had been in vain, and her heart was heavier than ever before.

In her solitude, she wandered through the places that once brought her joy, trying to find solace. One day, as she sat by a quiet stream, lost in her thoughts, an elderly woman with a gentle presence approached her. The woman sat beside her and spoke with a voice full of wisdom and kindness.

"My dear, I can see the pain in your heart," she said softly. "You have given so much love to others, but you must also learn to love yourself."

The young woman looked at her with tear-filled eyes. "But how can I? Every time I thought I was loved, I was left alone, blamed for everything that went wrong. My tears were called drama, my emotions complaints. When I was sad, I was told to be happy on my own. I must be unworthy."

The woman shook her head, her eyes filled with understanding. "Love is not about worthiness. It is about giving and receiving. You have given so much, but you have not allowed yourself to receive love from the most important person in your life: yourself. Only when you cherish and value yourself will you find someone who truly sees and loves you for who you are."

These words struck a chord deep within her. She realised that she had been seeking validation and love from others without ever truly believing she deserved it herself. Slowly, she began to change. She started taking care of herself, finding joy in simple pleasures, and appreciating her own company.

As she healed, she discovered a new strength within her. She was still kind and giving, but now she had a quiet confidence and a deep sense of self-worth. People around her began to notice this change. They were drawn to her not just for her kindness, but for the light that now shone from within her.

 It’s a diary by nature but it’s my personal experience. Coronavirus was spreading like anything in India when Janta Curfew was declared. At this point of time I decided to travel back to my natives from Delhi as Delhi was turned the hub for the virus. Facing couple of blows from the auto-rickshaw driver and the cab drivers I reached the airport where I could notice mass of people trying to return back to their natives wrapped in PPE kits face covered with masks hands with gloves waiting for the announcement. The best kind of motivation is always self-motivation. After few days when the Nizamuddin cases raised I was targeted for being a Muslim and travelling from Delhi. Neighbors stopped speaking, if parents went for vegetable shopping people started staring. I had my own struggle which was stopped after me complaining to the Superintendent of Police.