Musings of a Dreamer

it’s true. I only ever really updated Tumblr when things were hitting the fan. Drama, confusion, struggles makes for good content ha. Headache and misery inspire the inner soul and bring forth words. Life though as of late, has been great. Work continues to inspire and challenge me as I grow in my career. Friends, old and new continue to have a presence in my life for which I’m thankful for. I read my last post and laughed. S indeed has turned out to be very different. I’m so happy he’s in my life and I continue to marvel at how his existence has enhanced my being. He brings a calm that I hadn’t ever been privy to with the last guys I had been with. In fact, they were most certainly a pain point and the cause of frustration and anguish. Words aren’t enough, but thank you S. For the endless laughter, support, respect and love.

2014. I find myself doing less, and less by way of comprehensive annual reflections like I used to. Not sure if this is a bad thing entirely, or speaks more to my failure to put it down on paper. It sure has been one hell of a year.

It was a year of even more growing pains, finding myself as a daughter, sister, employee, and a woman. There has been such a wealth of experiences that have occurred, and I can't bring myself to jot down every single thing, but rest assured their impact has been felt. The things I'm most grateful for are:

having a wonderful sister and now brother-in-law who gave me the opportunity to get a real start here in SF, and their overwhelming generosity

having challenging, and rewarding internships that served as influential foundations for the career I'm currently building -- the friends I gained are a fantastic bonus

the amazing company I'm so proud, and humbled to be a part of, my inspiring, and badass coworkers, and overall the fact I look forward to coming to work everyday

finding my awesome apartment, and sweet roommate, ultimately making a new friend as well

keeping in touch with dear old friends, I sincerely appreciate those who make the effort, and meeting new friends

dating in the city ha...so many guys, and yet wholeheartedly. Thank you, thank you for showing me the good in you, the worst in you, and teaching me what I really want in a man. For all the disappointments, moments of confusion, feeling emotionally drained, and gutted -- I can say with absolute certainty, I have never been more strong, confident, and full of love for myself. And as they say, when this happens...someone always finds their way to you.

And so I start 2015 with the wonderful accomplishments, and gifts of the past year, "the old," along with the new? It hasn't been very long, but S, oh you're so different. Is it just maturity, and a sense of self-awareness that comes with age? Maybe. But there's something else I can't quite put my finger on yet. All I know is that you make me laugh, and smile so much, and it's so easy. You're a gentleman through, and through. That's how it should be, simple, easy, and effortless. Let's see where it goes my man friend :)