✨️🌙Ethereally yours✨️🌙

​ sometimes I wonder will this make me crumble or will I finally be able to exist without the grief controlling everything and burdening my mind always in the background waiting for the slightest thing to reignite the grief all over again?

Will I always feel so completely wrecked by her loss? Will I overcome the grief? Will I be able to exist or find solitude or peace?

Constant thoughts, all the time.

Brenda, I wish you would have lived. This is proof of how important YOU WERE.

I won’t forget where I was when I heard about about Columbine survivor Greg Barnes taking his life with this song playing on repeat in 2000.

And I’ll never forget how devastating the song was after my older sister took her life in 2003.

How can a song give you goosebumps still 23 years later.

- oh my god heat rising to an upstairs flat is awful

-it’s too hot to eat, sleep, work, exist

I would lay in walk in freezer if I could

I would absorb cold water through my skin if I could

There is no relief. I can’t remove clothes I don’t have access to aircon or can afford even their cheaper units yet.

what I would give for cold rain, or a cool breeze

How am I supposed to sleep in this?