for two and a half seasons, we've seen this man go from nearly marrying a woman who was lying to him, to travelling the world, to changing his whole personality and sleeping with random women to fit in, and the one constant is trying to find 'purpose'. and then penelope happens and everything is bright and beautiful.
this breaks my heart, our hearts, and penelope's heart because his self worth comes into it and he believes he needs to protect her and if he's not doing that, what is he good for? when really truly all penelope wants is him as he is and he can't see it. not yet. like oh baby boy, it's going to be okay i promise.