padayon;

It’s been a while

Fuck universe. 

When you fail at something you do best, a universe’s way of telling: not today bitch. A painful defeat of facing reality that this is all I’m capable of, failing. 

There’s a thing about wearing earphones at night; you are in an enclosed space engrossed from doing something yet you feel so distant from the reality you are living in. The best way to escape from your mundane life to god-knows where the music you are listening to can bring you. 

Here goes this familiar feeling; a feeling wherein I’m slowly losing grasps of the things I worked hard to build, a feeling that is eating the entirety of my soul, my hopes and goals, a feeling of not having everything under control, and most importantly a feeling that I’m most afraid of.