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first! the cute little moments 🥰

waking up one morning to my puppysub giving my actual dog her medication on time AND bringing me my morning pills 🫠💞 coming home from lunch to my puppy vaccuming my house and doing my dishes ❤️‍🔥 and then she knocked out like a light from all the hard work she did, poor thing 🥺

watching her claim in the first week that she HATES being a passenger in the car and always begging to drive us, only to whine and blush about how much she loves being my passenger princess while I play with her puppy parts on the highway ❤️‍🔥🥰 (don't worry! I'm a very good driver 😉)

seeing that look in her eyes when I pet her face and nose 🥰 watching the fight leave her completely when she gets just a little bit of attention 🥺🩷

hearing "whatever Master wants" whenever I ask for her opinion ❤️‍🔥 I'm still getting used to that 😭 but I'm getting better!!

she came in from working on her car all high strung and stressed and I got to brush her hair and put it up in a pony for her 🥺🥰 watching her eyes slowly close while I brush out her gorgeous (and surprisingly cooperative) hair is so sweet 🥺🥰✨💞

and now for some dom discoveries!! 🔎‼️

i have never gotten turned on while domming someone but let me fucking tell you. touching her on the highway and hearing her cry out from pleasure?? I keep extra panties in my car now. Just in case.

I adore touch now. I've been a very anti-touch person in my real life for a long time. I don't like people touching me unless apsolutely necessary for what we are doing, and I HATE faces near mine....usually. now I'm giving my puppygirl a kiss every time I can and I can't keep my hands off of her. I still have a little bit of jumpy wariness when being touched back, but so much less than I did!!!

I love inflicting pain. hey guess what? it feels fucking good to hurt someone when they actually like it. I hear backtalk from my puppy and instantly my hands are itching. I'm still learning exactly how to act on that urge, but it's there!

I really like having a puppy attached to me, especially when I am not using her. I like when she sits at my feet, ready for an order. I like knowing that if I call for her she will come running. I'm looking forward to selecting some less-verbal commands for things I need or want. the more I can do to make her feel like a dog the better 💞

there is a distinct difference between a kink that I have fun engaging in as a dom and a kink I get turned on by as a dom. one makes me lock-in in an almost hyperfixation way, similar to when you're playing a resource managment sim or something. and the other makes my head spin and my brain melt 🫠💞 example: when I've got my pup chained to my computer chair begging me to please be released so she can go pee and I am shoving my fingers as far as they can go down her throat as a distraction, that's a game. I'm locked-in, I'm watching her reactions, I'm counting moment and whines and optimizing my decisions like this is a game I'm attempting to 100%. on the other hand, when I'm shoving my tongue in her ear and she's genuinely begging me to stop because she's scared she will cum without permission...all rational thought is leaving my brain and the speed of fucking light dude. nothing matters except forcing her to cum against her fucking will simply because it will turn me on more. I'm not even thinking about punishing her for disobeying, I just want her to feel fear when I force her to cum.

I made some sub discoveries too!! ✨‼️

all my edging work has paid off beautifully for me 🥰❤️‍🔥 at this point it takes a long while for me to cum, but getting to the edge takes seconds. I am pretty much stuck on the edge in agonizing pleasure from the moment she touches me to the moment she stops.

I have confirmed my distaste for hard tickles. as soon as the tickling sensation crosses over into pain, I can almost ignore it. and I don't mean overstimulated pain from lots of tickles, I mean pressing pain from jabs or pokes. I am a kneading and wiggling kinda bitch lmao puppy gently running her fingers over some of my spots actually made me wanna scream (in a good way obv) 😵‍💫🫠❤️‍🔥

I bruise so fucking easily. like. crazy easily. like my puppygirl was squeezing my knee playfully and I'm bruised. it's gorgeous. it makes me feel fucking feral to be bruised up. it makes me feel like a pretty porcelain doll that's being played with just a little too roughly 🔥✨💞

puppy is new to being a service pup in the way I want it. new to the tickling kink, new to having a Master who also gets quite submissive. new to having a master who like to feel like a plaything and a doll. but she locked in a few nights ago and I was fucking shaking. slowly lifting my arms up to tickle me while I beg "no please" the while time. not even looking me in the eye while I beg. genuinely even minutes after she was done I was curling into her and shivering just thinking about it. and every time my brain started to think "oh my god wait actually it's too much" it was a rush of good chemicals istg. the moment the fear kicked in I felt fucking high. I knew I liked fear but fuck dude khfkdbdnf.

would u fucking believe I said the word 'tickle' out fucking loud to them?? cuz I couldn't believe it when I was doing it. SO far into subspace that I was begging "oh my god it tickles" and it felt good 😭😵‍💫❤️‍🔥

I like when she's a little mean to me. so much. I like the tone of her voice and how she sounds just a little bit fond of me when she gets mad. I like when I can tell she's suppressing actual frustration. sometimes when she's really angry it sends a little shiver down my spine and my brain goes mush 🫠 I like riling her up. I like rolling around and fighting with her. i like that she's not ultra-sweet to me 24/7 (although I do rly like the sweet sometimes 🥹) because I like being a Bastard. its like owning a hearding dog. that's my loyal pup but if I start running around and juking her she will start nipping at my ankles 🫠😵‍💫💞 and that's SO fun djdkhjf

and now! I wanna talk a little bit about the struggles. nothing bad! Just speedbumps in the road 🩷💚

when you have a service sub, you have to learn how to ask for things. the appeal to me of being a freeuse doll is that I don't have to ask. I don't even have to speak. things just happen to me and I have no say. I like the idea of having an instruction manual (list of kinks, my blog, etc) and therefore I don't have to ask for anything, u can just look at my manual. but that's not how a Master/Sub dynamic works. puppy does what I say and not much else. so if I don't ask, I don't get. that is a struggle for me that I'm working on. I want so much that I know for a fact she would do for me, but I just can't voice it. I don't like asking for things 😭

scenes and moments have not been planned as we have a 24/7 dynamic. unfortunately that does lead to bumps in the road. I expirienced irl subdrop for the first time in a looooong time because we didn't end a scene properly and it scared us both. my puppy is alot more expirienced with 24/7 dynamics than I am, so I have alot more trouble with needing reassurance ESPECIALLY if I'm in sub mode.

I do think I have a half-empty glass when it comes to domming. every time I do dom-aligned things, some of the water in the glass gets poured out. in order to fill it back up, I steal water from the half-full sub glass until that's empty too. I haven't hit the point where both cups are empty, but sometimes it feels like it's rapidly approaching. I have yet to learn how to recognize or communicate when I feel overworked as a dom, or under-utilized as a sub. mostly because it hasn't felt troubling yet. I want to learn how to communicate that before I feel it!

I get self conscious about how I look while submissive because she looks so good 😭 I have yet to feel comfortable fully unmasking, especially when I'm in the more submissive role, because I am still policing my face. her face is so expressive, I can pretty much always tell if she likes what I'm doing by the way her face reacts. this, for some reason, makes me self-conscious about how my face reacts. I want to be able to communicate with my face how good I feel, but it takes so much fucking effort to police my face when I'm in subspace. about 60% of my energy is going into making sure I'm making the right facial expression. I feel most relaxed when she is a little aggressive with me and I let my face fall.

this will come as a shock to no one who follows this blog but I am an intense sub. technically I am a switch through and through, but my submissive side is incredibly deep. ive learned through play with my puppy that if I allow myself to feel full submission for even a moment, I drop hard and fast into subspace. this...isn't ideal when I am preforming as a dominant in a 24/7 dynamic.......

in a 24/7 dynamic in which I fullfil the dominant role, the lines are really really blurry on when it's appropriate to be in subspace. my puppy is a service sub, she is submissive to me and has permission to be submissive 24/7. she is willing to be dominant towards me as a service, but it is not her default. this means that I have to temper and restrain my submissive side and assess every situation to see if I am safe to give in to any submissive urges. I have fallen into subspace a handful of times with my puppy and immediately recognized that it is not an appropriate time to be doing so and had to claw my way out. this isn't my puppy's fault (and hun if you're reading this do not fret!), but even tho clawing my way out hurts me briefly, the feeling of letting myself feel submissive and then not having my needs met is much more painful. so I choose the lesser of the two evils for now, because the solution to the issue is communicating my needs and what kind of loser does that? <- TRICK QUESTION everyone should communicate their needs. I'm just deeply flawed and self-sabatoging but I'm working on it!

originally I had a bit in here about how my puppygirl hadn't made me cum yet, but that's no longer true 🥰 but!! I still have a struggle to comment on. it is genuinely harder to cum with an audience. I've learned that I am literally getting performance anxiety and it's making it harder to cum 😭 total silence, focusing hard to keeping myself calm, and direct, stable stimulation does the trick. however, I really would like to change this. I want it to be easier for me to cum! I know my puppy really really wants to please me, so right now her goal is always to make me cum. if it continues to be difficult to do so, I worry my puppy will never get to the point where she can satisfyingly engage in my denial kink with me 😭 I want to be told I'm not allowed to cum goddammit 😂😂😂 but it wouldn't matter now since it'll take me a good hour to get close in the first place 🙄😭😂

I need to work on not only learning but hearing the difference between my puppy communicating a want/need, and her telling me I am failing to satisfy her. what I mean by this is that sometimes I think I've gone quite hard on her, and once it's over she says "you could have gone harder". what my brain wants to hear is "you failed to dom me correctly" but what is actually being communicated is "don't be afraid, I can handle more". those are completely different sentiments but it's hard to not hear both as a big ol C- in Domming My Puppy 101.

I am okay with not checking all of her boxes when it comes to being a bdsm dom. this fact doesn't bother me at all. I know I'm not as hardcore as she'd like a dom to be, I can't possibly check certain anatomical boxes, and some of our kinks don't overlap. that's fine! but it bothers her that she can't check all of mine. and I don't need her to! it doesn't bother me that she isn't a 24/7 dom to me, or that she isnt really a Ler (yet 👀), or that enforcing extended denial isn't her thing. however...shes expressed that it bothers her. she wants to be the perfect service sub and therefor learn how to check all of my boxes regardless of her own comfort level...but I don't see the need for that. it's hard to communicate that yes i would feel more fulfilled if xyz were happening BUT you do not have to be the making it happen! that's what casual dynamics/solo poly is all about honey! 💞 no pressure to become someone's Singular Outlet!

Final Thoughts ❤️‍🔥

I have the most wonderful and perfect service pup 💞 she gives me the space to explore my dominant urges, and she'd do anything if it pleased me ✨

I want to work on communicating my thoughts and wants and needs, instead of just trying to constantly assess hers. it feels so fucking good to own and keep and please her, but there is that little nagging feeling in the back of my head that says everything could be all the more perfect if I could just say the things I want. whether those things are sadistic or masochistic urges, I want to communicate them 💞 being in a 24/7 dynamic literally requires communication.

I feel as though, in alot more ways than one, there is an imaginary line that I'm not allowing myself to cross. as a dom, as a sub, as a switch, the line is there and it's inches away from me but I just won't step over it. I predict that someday I will comfortably live on the other side of that line, but it's going to take alot of time and alot of talking about things 💞 fullness of time, as they say 😉

If you edge and tease their genitals with feathers and soft brushes, would that then cause them to live through decades of nothing but constant tickle edging with no relief? What about if you used a powerful vibrator on them? Or if you pounded their holes with the largest dildo you could fit in them? Or maybe worst of all, got a group of lers to tickle them head to toe; not a spot left untickled.

What would happen? Would anything happen all? Would these physical sensations influence what the tripper experiences? You should try it out and let us know 😁

@transexyswitch

I almost saved this in my askbox but the world needs to see and read this and think about it cuz hotdamnjdhdkdbdkdbdndhxj

having been on halucingens before and expirienced a small amount of that like....feeling like 3 hours passed and it was moments thing...hoooboy...

While i'm here, may aswell ask if your boobs jiggle and bounce whenever you walk ^_^