MR.

I'm not mad just disappointed 😔 you are too smart to accept what I watch you accept. You know what is better for you but you are under a spell that's keeping you in the loop you want things to change for the better you might have to sacrifice what you want to keep the most.

I never thought someone can belittle someone without thinking what if this actually bothered a person. The amount of stupid mistakes a person can make does not mean you need to talk down on them. Every fucking day I experience people talking down on me trying make me feel worthless when what they are saying is false. You should choose how your u speak to people because sometimes people snap. I'm not going to make sure everyone else is ok before I make sure I'm ok. I don't need the amount of pain, and frustration that you have caused. I might ask that you don't speak to me anymore but not yet. I still have hope that we can remain hommies

Will I run. No need. There is no where to run there is no where to hide. There is no where I can go that these feeling won't occur. I just have to keep pushing.

I had an eye opener that made me happy, sad, pissed off, and worried. I don't need to be around people no more. At least people that know me. I need to be around people who don't me at all I want to replace everything except my family. I hate when people come at me because they think they are close enough to act any way but when my emotions come out it's a problem. It's time to go somewhere and enjoy something for once. I thought I was happy before but I'm feeling like I'm being bullied in a different way.

I just want to be happy and move away from everything. I want to place myself so far away no one would want to see me. Not because I'm annoyed but because no matter how far or close I am to those who claim care I feel like they don't. I feel alone and I'm not sad about it because I'm not surprised. I watch how everyone interact with another only to see the opposite action come out with me. Like they say it's all good in the beginning never all the time.