Jul 18
was talking with a friend (who is aware of my dark and troubled past or whatever) and we were discussing where to eat. she asked me if i would be alright with a restaurant farther away because i was hungry, and i asked her what she thought. and oh my god this mf genuinely went “i’m more worried about you… see i’m used to starving myself.” what an odd fucking comment to make to someone you know nearly had a heart attack bc of an ED as a teen. but see me bringing that up suddenly killed the conversation. oh well.
#she explained (again for the two millionth time) that she can’t eat when she’s stressed and that’s why she “starves”#so it’s not like. an ED. but the way she’s acting rn feels disordered im ngl. im worried but im also pissed stop trying to compete with me.#which. she keeps talking abt it. and i love her to bits but this is starting to piss me off#like what do you want me to say#‘omg that’s so cool that’s so crazy omg that’s so sick omg omg’ like girl#im not going to be impressed or worried if u keep bringing it up im just going to be annoyed. ur annoying me now.#SHE APOLOGIZED AND I SAID IT WAS FINE#but actually is it rlly fine. bc it fucking irked me so bad.#blayne#delete later
