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How terrible, that the thought of wanting to live scares me more than death.

I'm tired of people saying "I'm here to help," like the only thing that matters is me being able to function. What I want them to say is "I'm here for you," because that means I can go to them when I'm feeling down for comfort without being pressured to get better ASAP.

Sometimes I wish people would see just how much pain I'm in, and lock me up so I can't hurt myself. I am so close to ending it all.

I love just suddenly remembering people I used to date/ people I nearly dated. Especially since they kept in contact with me for a long time and would just randomly start up a conversation with me. Like, those people genuinely liked me and wanted to be with me, but I felt nothing like that for them. And now I wonder what would happen if I started talking to them again. Do they still have feelings for the idea of the person I used to be? Or do they scorn me, disgusted with the person I really am? Just random thoughts I had.

Wow. I know people have said Sweeney Todd is basically Depp killing the cast of HP, but now watching it...

What the fuck Victoria!? Why do I need a penis to be a man?? What sort of logic says that I must be sterile to be recognised as a man?!??

I am absolutely living for the relationship between Magnus and Alec. Love it!

Dear lord. Magnus flirting with Alec is so cringey. I love it.

I don't like the Mortal Instruments all that much, but dear lord Magnus is my life. He is lit the only reason I've started watching Shadow Hunters, and yah, he is lit.

So I'm behind on updates, but who gives a fuck. I made dark chocolate and coconut fudge yesterday, and today I made a cookie dough tart, and tomorrow I'm gonna make an apple crumble cake.

I love it when I have an identity crisis. I mean, I know I'm male, but I'm also a fucking babe.