my town was a wasteland

full of cages, full of fences, pageant queens, and big pretenders // private nancy wheeler of netflix’s “stranger things”. headcanon & canon based; au and crossover friendly. 21+ only as mature and heavy themes are present. mutuals only. k. she/her. old. mst. medium activity. // but for some it was paradise

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exploring themes of: coming into your own, survivor’s guilt, accidental final girl, protective older sister, taking down the government, nosey nancy, finding inner bravery, proving femininity doesn't equal weakness.

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so my grandfather -95, insanely independent, lives on his own, beat cancer three times, cooks, cleans, drives where he can- is on hospice care at his home. it's the home he and my grandma and dad bought in the mid 60s when they came to the states from italy. only a month ago, my grandpa was his usual self: funny, witty, sharp. and now he's... going to leave me soon i feel. it could be weeks, it could be months, but he hasn't eaten or drank properly in days, and only sleeps; i know what that means.

what makes this harder for me, is my mom is supposed to have been here. she was supposed to be here to help with organizing the service, calling his family we've never met in the south, helping me go through the house she also remembers going to when she first started dating my dad in '77. she had told me she knew she had to get better healthwise because of all of that, that she didn't want to have to just be sitting in an armchair while i run around and do everything.

and now i'm going to have to anyway. and my mental state right now has been rocked again with the idea of losing someone who is also the last connection to my dad. who knows stories about him as a little boy (my grandpa can still recall perfectly where their apartment in italy was, when he first saw my grandma coming out of a paris subway station). i'm so relieved he's at home, with 24 hour care, getting to leave this world the way he wants, but... i'm still grieving my mom, of course, and i'm not ready to pile on even more grief and loss, but i have no choice.