Mostly Naked Men

I think it means you should continue asking yourself questions. Bisexuality is definitely a possibility, one you perhaps haven’t considered before since society exerts such strong pressure to place people on a sexual binary (straight or gay) rather than fully acknowledging the amount of space in between. And if you come from a conservative background where anything outside of heterosexual relationships are accepted/acknowledged, then that is another strong influencer that may have prevented you from considering the possibility that you are interested in anything other than females.

It is also possible that you are in fact gay and this is the beginning of your coming out process to yourself. That was my experience as a young man, someone who thought he was interested in women but found himself more and more drawn to male pornography and images of the male form. I spent several years making excuses (watching straight porn but focusing on the men, looking at pictures of the men masturbating and saying I was just trying to learn about different techniques) before I finally admitted to myself that no, I’m really just interested in men and that is okay. And I am lucky enough to come from a supportive family who I knew would support me even before I came out, so it wasn’t a fear of their rejection that was preventing me from being honest with myself. That is just the strength of society’s heteronormative messaging.

Ultimately no one can tell you who or what you are interested in but you. I think being able to ask yourself questions like this is an important part of your sexual journey and encourage you to continue to do so without judgement. If after reflection you think there is a real possibility you are attracted to men (either in addition to or instead of women), find a supportive person you can trust to experiment with. And if putting a strict label on your sexuality feels repressive to you, then don’t and just do what and who you’d like. There are many options out there when it comes to sexuality, so keep exploring until you find the one that feels right for you, and don’t be afraid to adjust your ideas based on new information and experiences.