Malewife, Manwhore, Minecraft

Sometimes it just hits me that I’m actively hiding every interest of mine from my parents and faking having more ‘respectable’ ones. How did they fuck up so badly that I get panic attacks when I think about them knowing I like ninja turtles. Like why would you tease and ridicule your child so much that they are scrambling to hide their innocent hobbies. And I’m mad at myself because I’m letting them get to me!! I shouldn’t care about their opinion but all I very obviously do. It’s just. Ugh. I’m horrible at keeping my own secrets, but for once I want to enjoy something without having to see my parents faces every time they see me enjoying it. I’m sick of pretending I’m just tolerating a show for the lolz. I’m sick of deleting my watch history every time I watch a silly little kids show. I’m just so tired.