There was a good chance Wesleyâs coworkers had started to linger by the door, listening in on the conversation that was too loud to ignore in the otherwise quiet office. Wesley was entirely the one responsible for causing the excessive volume of the conversation. In his many years working at the firm heâd never done anything to earn himself the title of a hothead, but in one day he was running the chance of dashing that.
Hearing Maya explain that sheâd realized it was a mistake right after leaving didnât do anything to ease his boiling anger. âYou realized right after you left Manhattan but you didnât make any effort to come back or see the girls until now? How does that make sense, Maya?â He scoffed, turning away from her to pace across the office without any goal of where he was going. Moving was his only way to keep from completely exploding.
The man was physically listening to what Maya had to say but the complete picture of what she was saying wasnât fully processing. He was too wrapped up in the current storm of emotions churning in him. After so long to deal with what Maya had done Wes shouldâve had a more controlled reaction.
âIâm supposed to just trust that youâre going to stay. I donât know how to trust you. Not any more. You broke that a long time ago.â His voice had fallen in volume but the anger was still present in his tone. Simmering under the surface. One wrong word could be enough to send him back over the edge.Â
âIâve been raising those girlsâprotecting themâand Iâm not about to let you walk right back into their lives like nothing happened. Theyâre old enough now to remember you, to be hurt the next time you decide raising two kids is too hard.â Thinking about how to reintroduce the girls to Maya, how to best protect them for anything and everything that could go wrong had him pacing again. Going back and forth in long strides between two spots in the office. âI donât know how you could prove it to me that you wonât hurt them.â
She stayed silent, watching him pace. She could remember, almost too vividly, the fights theyâd gotten into when they were together. Almost a decade ago. How he would burn excess energy off in this same way, Maya finally reaching a snapping point and telling him not to run a hole in their carpet. But those fights had been easy, stupid - jealousy over someone flirting too much, arguing about where to get dinner from, trying to figure out if they wanted to live in New York or a small town - it was never this.Â
It took her awhile to form her words, trying to make sure her voice was even - he could be upset, he deserved to be upset - but she would be the picture of calm, no matter what. She had to do that, for them. If she fed into his anger, into his chaos, there was no hope this could go anywhere productive.Â
âI donât expect to walk right in, Wes,â she said after a moment, trying to keep her gaze steady on him. âI donât expect you to let me see them for awhile. I know that I broke all trust with you when I left. I know I should have called, should have reached out. I have made every wrong mistake a person possibly could. I donât even expect to leave here without you still hating me - I just wanted you to know I was here. And that Iâm going to try. That Iâm going to - âÂ
she lost her words halfway through, her shoulders slumped. There was a nagging question that sheâd always wanted to know, and maybe it wasnât the best time but - when would be? If he was going to be angry, heâd be honest, at least, and that was all she could hope for.Â
"You didnât exactly come looking for me either,â she reminded him, voice gentle so he wouldnât think of her as accusatory. âNo missed phone calls, text messages. No social media interactions. I kept everything exactly the same, Wesley, and you never reached for me. I know this is my fault, I know I fucked up, but even in the days after I left, I didnât hear one word from you. You took my note at face value and cut all ties with me. Why would I have come back when you never asked me to?âÂ