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i am still dealing with the heartbreak of losing your friendship and being so humbled by your decision to, essentially, back my abuser instead of backing me after 10 years of friendship.

i told you everything. i told you many secrets. we had many inside jokes. we helped each other through many breakups. you came to my house at night because you needed to vent and i was here for you. but i couldn’t come to you when i needed you most. i should’ve gone on vacation with you that time you asked. i should’ve been there more. i should’ve listened to you. why did you have to hurt me?

i never got any kind of closure from this. i read the “he’s my friend too” message and thought that would be enough for me to move on and keep going without having your friendship. but it only makes it hurt worse.