My cheeku, my handsome cheeku. I am writing this cuz I am unable to bear this loss. I am sorry, I am really sorry, I wasn't there for you, I couldn't come to save you. Never in many years I would have thought you'll go like this and now that you're gone, I just can't help thinking only about you. I have lost so many pets, but the void you left is heartbreaking for me. Now there's no one who welcomes me whenever I am back home from office. It's empty, just empty. The kindness and care and behavior you've shown in first year of your life, I never thought someone would be this cruel to take it away from you. Always taking care of us, protecting us, even your cat brothers, I will never forget that. I am writing cuz I can't do anything else. I can't make you come back to life. So I an writing in hope that you might get to hear my feelings. I can't forget your face, those innocent kind eyes, they just keep appearing in front of me. I wanna scream, I wanna burn everything cuz this world is so cruel. I don't find anything good in this world anymore. I don't wanna be part of this world. I feel like I have lost all the meaning and purpose I had in my life. I can't take it anymore cheeku. You left and you took my bravery and my sabr with you, now it's all broken and I can't mend it. I wish I would have protected you better, I wish I would have ran after you, I wish I would have just make you stay inside forcefully. But it's all wishes now. And I don't think people can understand my pain at all, I lost my child, my precious child.
I just hope you are together with chotu and moon whom you really loved and missed. I hope you guys are all together playing and annoying each other. I hope you find me when I die. And I hope I find peace and my will to live because I am unable to do this anymore. I hope we all meet in Afterlife. I love you, my chiku my moon my chotu, all my kitties, I hope we all find each other. And I hope you guys are happy and in peace there. I love you all
