a mistake in the making

As if Micah knowing of her wasn’t punishment enough, it appears she knows of their circumstances, too. Not anything he would’ve chosen to keep from her but rather divulge in his own time, in his own words. Maybe in a way that didn’t paint him in such a pathetic light. It’s difficult to stay there, though—in the humiliation sprinkled with an adequate amount of self-pity—because there’s that smile, and a familiar warmth envelops the cold. 

      “ Off the hook? ” Staying within her reach, a cautious hand moves to the dip of her waist. “ You know, you were never really… on it. Never have been. ”

julian’s doesn’t stray too far from the present, and in doing so, he keeps her grounded in the now. not more than a faint murmur in the background do his past relationships become, and micah prioritizes patience over the dimming urge to concern herself with the details of the life she’s missed. the adventures of the suryadi twins before its fatal end, her ex-boyfriend’s relationship with his father and more; julian and micah had told their own stories to each other in their own words in their own little world, for them to hear and understand and no one else. maybe when they’re ready again, after they build themselves back up, they will do it again— it’s part of the hope he signifies, the future.

Out of everything he expects her to say… 

     “ Your roommate? ”

He doesn’t need the confirmation rather a moment to digest. It seems obvious, in a way, Faith’s way of weaselling her way back into his life — by any means necessary. But Micah’s confession remains unexpected. Like a bad jump scare in an even worse horror flick. 

     “ She is unbelievable. ”

         “  i—  ”  micah’s certainly missing pieces of this puzzle; years worth of exchanges and memories she was miles away for. pippa’s tale painted faith in the bluest, darkest hues, and that alone had been enough for everything around her to turn red.  “  yeah. i put up an ad— didn’t wanna pay rent in full. savin’ an’ stuff.  ”  but this isn’t what’s important.

     “ He broke up with me. Three years ago. ”​

     “ Egged it. Probably would’ve done worse, but he was standing like, right there.”​

   “ Careful Micah, your jealousy is showing. Can you imagine what they say about you, behind your back? You went psycho on a girl in a grocery store because she slept with your ex             —        years later? Oh, I bet it’s juicy. I bet it’s everything you wanted them to say when you came back to town. Your obsession with Juls is a little much, don’t you think? Because you’re losing your shit, and I’ve already lived with not being ‘ his choice,’ so              —         of course, it’s not like you’d be worried. Right, Micah? ”

     “ Well, no. But it’s not like anyone cares about my dating life. Me trashing my ex’s car is just a random act of violence. You’ve got the rumours to go with it. No offence. ”​

    “ And yet, you’re still talking about me. How often do you make fun of me? How often do you reply that video of you kicking my ass? Never once did I do shit to you, and you still seem like you’re obsessed.            —        If Pippa and Kevin have their own lives and friends that’s good for them? But no one dropped me. ”

     “ Easy there, Rambo. I’m just trying to tell you that I sympathise, okay? You’re not the only one who hates her. Or resorts to destruction of property. ”​

     “ I’m flattered            —         I didn’t know you were a fan. ” | starter for @moonskies.

    “ I get that and I totally respect the restraint, but I wouldn’t have blamed you if she like, at least broke something. Super fucking skeevy to do what she did. I mean, it’s one thing to sleep with the guy—you guys were broken up, and like, shit happens—but the whole waiting and pining, ‘nd acting all innocent about it ? That’s fucked up. ”​

     “ No, we were. I just… No matter how sad or pathetic I am, at least I will never be Czerny, y’know? ”​

      “ Right… Or get my ass beat by their girlfriends in the cereal aisle at Potter’s.”​

     “Sometimes when I like someone, I sometimes kind of, uh… stalk them. ”     /     @moonskies​ 

     “ That’s such a cop-out, you fucking liar. ”

     “ Yeah, right. Name one of these ladies. ”

          “  —’kay, so: i’m gonna need you to pack your stuff an’ leave by tomorrow mornin’. failure to do as i say will result on all of your shit gettin’ set on FIRE. have fun!  ”

      “ Twelve. And squishing me won’t turn you into a real boy. ”