new slate and intro!! Also I do stuff for money 🤫😼
hi everyone! I actually really do wanna do somethin with this Tumblr account, and put my stuff out there (since I quit other social media platforms due to their turning to ai 🥹). So here's a quick intro to me woah!!
Ok so hi everyone!! Im moon!! Or Sebastian!! Im a floridian voice actor whos been doin it for a little over a year. Im a nonbinary who goes by they/them (but i dont mind any usage of he/they ^^). Also omniaroace and otherkin 🤫😼
My birthday is august 15th 🥹💔
I like playing a lot of games!!! Right now im on the tomodachi life grind lol. But I really like things like Minecraft, crk, stardew, ultrakill, the portal games (and every single spinoff), slime rancher, Zelda (but my favorite is SPECIFICALLY twilight Princess ITS THE BEST ONE), wii games in general, bg3, terraria, undertale and deltarune, etcetcetc. Point is I like games and I like a lot of em :]
I like the osc a lot (which, coming from a voice actor whos done a lot of osc stuff, shouldnt be too much a surprise 🥹💔), bugs, nature and being outdoors, renfaires, cons...I like having fun :]
I also play a lot of instruments!! I play flute, oboe, gutair (acoustic and electric), and piano! ^^
I also like to draw a lot!! Im actually in the process of making my own show called S.T.R.A.Y. :D we haven't made too much progress on it but its ok...itll happen soon trust....lmao. i like writing a lot too, its very fun! ^^
Please DNI ai supporters, Nazis, transphobes, homophobes, zoophiles, pedofiles, anything about Vivian medrano content, zeal/zerum/kat supporters, and if youre planning on being hostile with me.
Ok onto the fun business stuff!! I know so boring...
You can ask me to be a va on your team!! I also do audio editing!! It doesnt have to be for money, but it sure is preferred 🥹 nah but seriously if you want me on your team just ask ill probably say yes!! Here's my portfolio of voice acting things ^^
And when it comes out, i also did edit scenes 15, 16, and 17 of Digital Destination Episode one (so far), as an example of my audio editing.
Now again you dont gotta pay me for it BUT I do want boba so ill literally voice anyone for a boba PLEASE IM SO FAT PLEASE
I also have art commissions up!! The day I needed them for has long past BUT you can still commission me for art!! Also I can do art trades too ^^
ok and here's the spanish version
I also am a certified professional in Adobe design so there's that. The computers I was doing it on had blocked all ai so there's that too.
its blacked out cuz privacy but I can assure you thats my name on there! So anyways I can design like. A logo or something for you if you want as well. Those i WILL charge for though 🥹
Ok uhm I think thats it yeah!!!! Hope yall have a great rest of your days, and stay safe and informed. :] 🫂
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I drew Gabriel from ultrakill and wanted to just like put it somewhere cuz i think theyre cool lookin but idk 🥹 the left one i just finished today and the right one was made throughout many months of school last year
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My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
ok so. First of all, it was heavily implied that you were talking about him. First talking about your own kitten and then tagging him, talkin sum "oh but im gonna stay!" Because you dont have the same empathy he had towards his own cat. It was SO clearly targeted towards him.
Secondly, from everything im seeing? YOU guys are the ones harassing. There are no lies. There is straight up evidence that you guys have taken such small things and twisted them in such ways to, quite litetally, IMPACT MY PHYSICALLY DISABLED FRIEND, LEON, AND CAUSE 𝘏𝘐𝘔 PHYSICAL PAIN, AND IMPACT MY FRIEND, MEDKIT, WHO IS MENTALLY UNSTABLE TO THE POINT OF 𝘙𝘌𝘓𝘈𝘗𝘚𝘌.
Add on to this ^ this is ALSO impacting my mental and physical health as well. Ive only just made this account to defend my friends, but have been supporting them from the server and even made my own statement for leon. Both me and Leon are physically stress sick from this situation, and I am currently being evaluated for an orthopedic back situation in which my legs do not allow me to walk or feel them all the time. The stress of this has been making it significantly worse. And i know its impacting Leon's disabilies as well. I will not disclose how, as that is very clearly NOT my medical info to share. Point is: its impacting me and my friend's mental and physical health as well.
You guys are also, from what ive seen, PUSHING him to stay. Cuz yk what? HES STILL TRYING TO DEFEND HIMSELF. DESPITE BEING IN MOURNING.
Its not just your own friend's physical and mental health put on the line. It is also theirs. The people you are going after for EXTREMELY small things. Mostly misunderstandings you refuse to change your thinking to, despite all the clear evidence against your claims.
You are CERTIANLY not being mindful AT ALL to the other side of this. You guys disgust me. Genuinely.
doesn’t have the same empathy’? They have more empathy than I do. And I cannot handle animal death without crying.
They called him out for making R feel unwelcome for simple criticism, and making another feel uncomfortable. That’s not harassment.
honestly I do hope you all get medical help. It’s no one’s intentions to harm anyone involved. That group I’m in simply want to hold him and Medkit accountable.
They never said anything about making him stay. He chose to stay.
None of us mentioned wanting them harm, yet again. Also Medkit doxxed them for trying to call him out on his harassment of R, and making a little in a system uncomfortable.
we have tried, honestly.
These children can’t fucking step back because of people like you. I don’t care anymore if you support Leonis or Medkit. Leave these fucking children alone so they can rest for five FUCKING MINUTES at least. They didn’t fucking deserve to be doxxed or attacked over calling out Leonis because he was being a horrible mod. I would know. I was there and have since left. I don’t want to deal with this and you made me.
first off, thanks for the good wishes with medical help. However, they HAVE taken accountability for what they did. What they didnt do is the reason we're all still here.
Second, yeah. I said what I meant. Again, yeah, everyone has different empathy levels. If thats the way hes gonna talk about a 2 day old kitten dying and still staying, trying to put down mg friend who still mourns for his lost cat every year, yeah, thats definitely a different empathy level. Again, im still sorry for the loss of that kitten.
it also wasnt exactly simple criticism, it was just...kinda lowk hating on it. Criticism should be constructive, have at least some points, and you can at least read the whole thing or know its not going to be like cannon if they were gonna say stuff like that.
Like i said earlier, I said I was gonna give you guys multiple sources every time you mentioned the "doxxing".
Doxing - Wikipedia https://share.google/koN8Mh6sq3FAnc3p7
Doxxing and Social Media | University Police https://share.google/zOqoovZddI9qyVhSl
What is Doxing? How to Prevent It & What to Do if You are Doxed https://share.google/ebUPrpHMykmjQLY32
Personal Cybersecurity and Privacy / Preventing Doxxing | Office of Ethics, Risk, and Compliance Services https://share.google/4TMoZXztiZeA95Yl7
Also, last i checked? Your guys are full grown adults. Fun fact about me: im not even 16 until August. If anything, your guys aint the kids here. Nobody's being doxxed. Public usernames, especially on discord and roblox and stuff like that, are PUBLIC! Fun fact! Thats NOT doxxing! If anything yall are also slightly attacking me, an actual minor.
Also i didnt make you do anything. I dont know you. I didnt tag you. I didnt mention you. You responded to my statement of your own free will. If you dont want to deal with it, then dont.
I am going to try to put this in an understandable manner.
Going out of your way to contact the confirmed minor victims despite Leonis publicly stating not to does NOT make him look better.
It actually makes him look worse. It makes it look like he is actively sending people to harass these minors behind the scenes. Whether you intend on that or not, you are one of HIS moderators. He directly states "Block and move on". The CALLOUT BLOG says block and move on.
Not one of the minors involved nor the blog mods gone out of their way to interact with Leonis. They have been blocking him and all of their supporters due to the mass amounts of harassment.
If you actually care about Leonis and his reputation, please, stop contacting his victims. Block and move on. Everything you say can and does make him look significantly worse. These posts alone could be used as evidence of stalking and harassment on the callout blog's end.
You are giving them more ammunition.
Also, Leonis did not in fact own up to the fact it was wrong to disregard a minor's boundaries. It has in fact been confirmed BY the minor that they lied about their age in the server.
Everything you say to these minors in defense of Leonis will make it worse for him.
If you care about him, you will leave them alone like he told you to publicly.
Unless of course he told you to block evade on his behalf, in which case
[SOURCE: Discord Community Guidelines]
Yes, telling someone to block evade on your behalf is considered a form of harassment, as well as a violation of safety policies on most online platforms.
[SOURCE: Tumblr]
When someone blocks you, it is a clear boundary indication, and attempting to circumvent it—either directly or by having another person contact them for you—constitutes persistent, unwanted contact.
yo so....WHO is going and contacting "minors" here? Yall are the ones still tryna contact and drag it out with me, an actual minor! I am one of his moderators. I am not going out of my way to "harrass" or contact ANYONE. Thats all you guys. Not once have I tagged someone else other than reposted and responded to desparingrat's very obvious comment directed to my friend who was mourning his dead cat.
Also, you keep SAYING minors, again, a term yall just want to throw around to the get attention of others, but really most if not all of you guys are 18 and older. Man i dont even turn 16 until august, and you guys keep claiming to be minors. I say, and crazy concept here, stay with me, that you guys actually own up to be the age you are externally! You guys are adults. Handle this like them.
I dont go out of my way to contact anyone. Im litetally judt replying to the same thread over and over. I have no clue how you think im "going out of my way" to do anything. Unfortunately, unlike you guys, i have a life to get back to and am busy with. I will defend my friends in these. You are the ones who choose to still reply, to still try and get involved. I dont know who you are. Not once have a tagged you. You responded to me out of your own free will.
Also, says the one who had a spy in our server! Thats real cute. Genuinely, though, if you guys really wanted to take this to court, as someone who used to be obsessed with court cases and wanting to be a lawyer at some point and doing so much research of what would and wouldn't stand in court, I have enough knowledge to know you guys would not be winning it.
yes, he did. In those dm where he got told? And why would they be lying about their age anyways?? I get pretending to be an age but thats another thing. He does it for categorization. They litetally couldve said "minor" or "adult" and it would've been just fine. Here's the exact rule btw.
so they didnt HAVE to put in their actual age. Age range was also fine. They seemed just fine dming it to that person! But lie about being 21 in this? Huh.
Also I still dont, as a minor, believe those guys are genuinely minors. Maybe mentally for some people, i can genuinely believe that in respect, but externally? Even if they are minors, they still need to stop dragging this whole thing out.
Also why would I be block evading, I have no alts on here 🥹✌🏼 I haven't read the public post of him telling us to block and move on, which, obviously I will, but after I hear your response. I wanna know your thought process on how im "going out of my way to attack 'minors'" here.
My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
ok so. First of all, it was heavily implied that you were talking about him. First talking about your own kitten and then tagging him, talkin sum "oh but im gonna stay!" Because you dont have the same empathy he had towards his own cat. It was SO clearly targeted towards him.
Secondly, from everything im seeing? YOU guys are the ones harassing. There are no lies. There is straight up evidence that you guys have taken such small things and twisted them in such ways to, quite litetally, IMPACT MY PHYSICALLY DISABLED FRIEND, LEON, AND CAUSE 𝘏𝘐𝘔 PHYSICAL PAIN, AND IMPACT MY FRIEND, MEDKIT, WHO IS MENTALLY UNSTABLE TO THE POINT OF 𝘙𝘌𝘓𝘈𝘗𝘚𝘌.
Add on to this ^ this is ALSO impacting my mental and physical health as well. Ive only just made this account to defend my friends, but have been supporting them from the server and even made my own statement for leon. Both me and Leon are physically stress sick from this situation, and I am currently being evaluated for an orthopedic back situation in which my legs do not allow me to walk or feel them all the time. The stress of this has been making it significantly worse. And i know its impacting Leon's disabilies as well. I will not disclose how, as that is very clearly NOT my medical info to share. Point is: its impacting me and my friend's mental and physical health as well.
You guys are also, from what ive seen, PUSHING him to stay. Cuz yk what? HES STILL TRYING TO DEFEND HIMSELF. DESPITE BEING IN MOURNING.
Its not just your own friend's physical and mental health put on the line. It is also theirs. The people you are going after for EXTREMELY small things. Mostly misunderstandings you refuse to change your thinking to, despite all the clear evidence against your claims.
You are CERTIANLY not being mindful AT ALL to the other side of this. You guys disgust me. Genuinely.
doesn’t have the same empathy’? They have more empathy than I do. And I cannot handle animal death without crying.
They called him out for making R feel unwelcome for simple criticism, and making another feel uncomfortable. That’s not harassment.
honestly I do hope you all get medical help. It’s no one’s intentions to harm anyone involved. That group I’m in simply want to hold him and Medkit accountable.
They never said anything about making him stay. He chose to stay.
None of us mentioned wanting them harm, yet again. Also Medkit doxxed them for trying to call him out on his harassment of R, and making a little in a system uncomfortable.
we have tried, honestly.
These children can’t fucking step back because of people like you. I don’t care anymore if you support Leonis or Medkit. Leave these fucking children alone so they can rest for five FUCKING MINUTES at least. They didn’t fucking deserve to be doxxed or attacked over calling out Leonis because he was being a horrible mod. I would know. I was there and have since left. I don’t want to deal with this and you made me.
first off, thanks for the good wishes with medical help. However, they HAVE taken accountability for what they did. What they didnt do is the reason we're all still here.
Second, yeah. I said what I meant. Again, yeah, everyone has different empathy levels. If thats the way hes gonna talk about a 2 day old kitten dying and still staying, trying to put down mg friend who still mourns for his lost cat every year, yeah, thats definitely a different empathy level. Again, im still sorry for the loss of that kitten.
it also wasnt exactly simple criticism, it was just...kinda lowk hating on it. Criticism should be constructive, have at least some points, and you can at least read the whole thing or know its not going to be like cannon if they were gonna say stuff like that.
Like i said earlier, I said I was gonna give you guys multiple sources every time you mentioned the "doxxing".
Doxing - Wikipedia https://share.google/koN8Mh6sq3FAnc3p7
Doxxing and Social Media | University Police https://share.google/zOqoovZddI9qyVhSl
What is Doxing? How to Prevent It & What to Do if You are Doxed https://share.google/ebUPrpHMykmjQLY32
Personal Cybersecurity and Privacy / Preventing Doxxing | Office of Ethics, Risk, and Compliance Services https://share.google/4TMoZXztiZeA95Yl7
Also, last i checked? Your guys are full grown adults. Fun fact about me: im not even 16 until August. If anything, your guys aint the kids here. Nobody's being doxxed. Public usernames, especially on discord and roblox and stuff like that, are PUBLIC! Fun fact! Thats NOT doxxing! If anything yall are also slightly attacking me, an actual minor.
Also i didnt make you do anything. I dont know you. I didnt tag you. I didnt mention you. You responded to my statement of your own free will. If you dont want to deal with it, then dont.
I'm going to try something new today, and start answering already put in asks I think. I'd like to keep my spirits up as the 15 year mark hits.
I never planned to post so publicly about this. I usually keep it simple and only talk about it to a couple friends or a server where I'm active. So I apologize for all the talk around my cat.
TW: animal death, the harassment / mocking over animal death. Suicide talk / mentions. Harassment mentions.
I've never been able to properly mourn him. Every year, someone would fuck it up. My parent would commonly yap about a theory that I hated about his soul. I had someone (who was actively stalking me) mock him a couple years ago by assuming my status about him was spite towards them (???) and this year he has been mocked again.
I don't think it's okay to do that in any context.
Yes, I was three. But I remember him more than I do the rest of my childhood. I remember coming home to no cat, no best friend, and I wouldn't understand death for several years more.
To me, animals that I have loved and cherished are just as impactful and important as any humans I love and cherish. I will mourn them. Every year. Every loss.
Same as I will mourn Sookie this July around my birthday. She passed last year, she belonged to my grandparents but she meant a lot to me as well.
I didn't get to be there when either of them passed.
I will continue to mourn. I will continue to love. Because they were family. Every year, I will mourn them. I will allow myself to cry for them. And I will smile believing they've found peace, somehow.
I think that's valid. I don't know why it wouldn't be. Those are living, breathing creatures that humans can form bonds with, even if it's not the same as a human.
Everyone mourns differently. And I choose to mourn every year for their death date. I choose to honor them and allow myself to be emotional.
May anyone who's lost an animal continue to remember them. May they never be forgotten. I'm sure they were loved until the end and I'm sure they never stopped loving you as well.
Thank you everyone for the support. It's meant a lot to me as someone who struggles to find validity in how I mourn for him.
And yeah, go ahead and make a counterpost immediately. Spying on my blog just so you can make some vague post to prove you're "better than me" for not taking a step back from everything is really messed up. If you really did lose a cat, I hope that it rests in peace. I cannot believe you would use a two day death of a kitten that should've been cherished just to look better than someone who mourns once a year. You know who you are, and you'll probably chop this up into "harassment", but I mean it. Genuinely who spies just to do that. You had no reason to shit on me for mourning my cat. You ignored the fact that I have struggled with ideations on his deathaversary. I am doing this not just for myself but for his honor because he wouldn't want me dead so soon.
I didn't know it was a crime to take care of my mental health. I didn't know it was a crime to mourn. If that's what you think then you don't deserve to do either for yourselves now, do you? And yet I have sat here through all of it and said I hope you all continue on and heal. Because I do. Most of you are 18-25 or something, that's still young. So genuinely, I hope you move on from the sick obsession you have with trying to push people to kill themselves.
I will continue to support my friends and bystanders you have pulled into this.
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My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
Adding on to this, it's not BS, and the fact that he's sharing the exact same screenshots already shared on @project-solace-callout but either cropped or without crucial details is very telling. He did not show him meatriding the Painter fictive at all, just him shitting on Raven. Even then, he deleted ALL of Raven's messages to make her look bad. There are posted screenshots of him invalidating a minor's boundaries. There are MORE screenshots of him and Medkit shitting on a minor's source memories, posting them publicly and parading them like a spectacle. If you support Leonis you are supporting someone actively hurting minors and you are not welcome.
He is doxxing the usernames of these minors and sending his fanbrats to give these minors rape threats and death threats.
Supporting him in any fashion makes you complicit if not actively a part of it.
Just found out I can see previous reblogs! Sorry, im still new to the platform.
Actually, i believe YOU are the ones leaving out the crucial details here. Youre just genuinely twisting it in a way to get him "canceled", when its honestly backfiring 🥹 also yeah, he DID show us the messages of what you claim to be as "meatriding". He...really wasn't.
also, he wasnt the one who deleted Ravens messages. I dont know why it wont let me send videos, but I have one demonstrating that its autoset to "dont delete any". He doesn't delete messages when he bans. This i DO have screenshots of.
Also, no I have not seen the posts of them allegedly putting someone's source memories down, but get this! Crazy concept! THEY ARE PHYSICALLY A 21 YEAR OLD ADULT. Their internal age is in no way, shape, or form grounds for you calling them a minor.
I do support my friends Leonis and Medkit. They are not hurting minors because, first, there's not more than one, and second, the "minor" in question is, in fact, a 21 YEAR OLD ADULT. Please, PLEASE stop saying theyre a minor. Their internal age does not make them a minor. Coming straight FROM a minor btw!
And i never wanted to be welcome amongst your filth anyways. >XP
Ive said it in the chats once, but you dont get to see those, so ill say it a million times over: screenshotting someone's PUBLIC USERNAME is not doxxing. Doxxing is when you reveal private information about another party. Like their name, address, city, etc. A roblox username or a Discord username is not doxxing another person. Please stop throwing around terms you most certainly do not understand.
I am a supporter and am trying to be more active in both of their defense.
Im going to bed. Its 11:09 pm for me and i need to wake up at 4:35 am. Ill be back tomorrow to respond to everything else
Yes, sharing private usernames without consent can be considered a form of doxxing, especially if the intent is to harass, intimidate, or expose someone who has taken steps to keep their online identity hidden or restricted. It involves publishing personal, non-public, or specifically curated information to cause harm or reveal a user's identity.
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Source: BBC
Approximately one-third (33%) to over 80% of children lie about their age to access social media and adult content, according to research. A 2024 Ofcom report found that most under-18s on major apps like Instagram, TikTok, and Snapchat have used false dates of birth to appear older, with 22% of 8–17 year olds claiming to be 18+.
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You do not have an ID. You cannot prove their age.
hey so fun fact! Your usernames are PUBLIC! On discord and stuff? Yes! Those usernames are PUBLIC!
Doxing - Wikipedia https://share.google/koN8Mh6sq3FAnc3p7
Doxxing and Social Media | University Police https://share.google/zOqoovZddI9qyVhSl
What is Doxing? How to Prevent It & What to Do if You are Doxed https://share.google/ebUPrpHMykmjQLY32
Personal Cybersecurity and Privacy / Preventing Doxxing | Office of Ethics, Risk, and Compliance Services https://share.google/4TMoZXztiZeA95Yl7
And about the age. Soooooo we're just gonna let a 21 year old pretend to be a minor now? Couldnt that tie in with, i dunno...pedophilia in a sense? In the same way youre tying zooohilia with leon? Talking about a 21 year old adult as if they were a minor still is not how it works, dude. No i dont have an id. But why would they put that if they were a minor?
My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
Adding on to this, it's not BS, and the fact that he's sharing the exact same screenshots already shared on @project-solace-callout but either cropped or without crucial details is very telling. He did not show him meatriding the Painter fictive at all, just him shitting on Raven. Even then, he deleted ALL of Raven's messages to make her look bad. There are posted screenshots of him invalidating a minor's boundaries. There are MORE screenshots of him and Medkit shitting on a minor's source memories, posting them publicly and parading them like a spectacle. If you support Leonis you are supporting someone actively hurting minors and you are not welcome.
He is doxxing the usernames of these minors and sending his fanbrats to give these minors rape threats and death threats.
Supporting him in any fashion makes you complicit if not actively a part of it.
what we 'cooked up' to other people? you mean when I was targeted for not immediately dickriding him when he made a bad tragedy route and was insulted? when he deleted my messages when he banned me for calling out his bullshit? he intentionally made me feel invalid just because i didn't like his ending and called out how it was like what Zerum was doing with her self insert. he also intentionally tried to get K killed. how you may ask? because she has physical issues that make stress threatening to her health or even life. and Medkit and Leonis were fucking told, and they targeted her.
also, you're a shit mod if you're condoning him attacking, doxxing and threatening minors just because we didn't ride his dick and didn't call him a prince— because he's not, he's a brat, —and called him out for disrespecting a minor's boundaries, insulting me for criticism and turning around and dickriding a painter fictive for the same criticism, and sending a fucking spy after us for it all to dox us.
sooooooo actually! If you like had read anything about project solace before reading that ending youd know that his sona, which i believe id genuinely one of his alters, is actually a huge part in his REWRITE! also, crazy concept i know, but its his rewrite and he can do whatever he wants with it! He wasnt tryna make you feel invalid at all, but if youd actually read anything beforehand or even read the actual whole thing you wouldlve known! Also, this rewrite and many of our own is how many of us are coping with the end of pressure. If you dont like his, write your own dude. Its his own coping mechanism, and its also helping a lot of us. It wasnt really constructive criticism either if you were just telling him that it wasnt that close to cannon and that it was weird that his sona was in there. Its not really like what Zerum wss doing either, btw. She kept the main character to herself and would lowk start stuff to others who liked him/self shipped him. While it is a sona, like her sona, what theyre doing with said sona is completely different.
It was NOT intentional. By this logic you are all also intentionally causing him pain, due to his own physical disability worsening with stress. By this logic you are also intentionally causing ME pain, as the stress of this situation is worsening a new condition of mine that i am currently being evaluated for. But i know (or, hope at the very least) that you guys are NOT intentionally hurting us both physically too.
Also, again, crazy concept, that "minor" you guys keep attacking him for? IS 21 YEARS OLD BODILY. Again, i get intetnal ages, i really, truly do, but that is in no way, shape, or form grounds for calling them a minor and saying leon was attacking a minor. As an ACTUAL minor btw!! From my point of view, from the original conversation with them that i ALSO was a part of, to me, seemed like they were joking along with us. I showed it to one of my irl friends and he said the same. As someone a part of that and didnt pick up on the signs, i also apologize. However, that was not jumping a "minor". And if anything, it wouldve been another member. Not Leon. I dont really understand why yall are going after him if he wasnt the one replying to those messsges K was sending.
Those boundaries were never set beforehand. They couldve mentioned this in an intro or something, or maybe a strawpage, something of that sort. But it never was. When i had first heard they were upset, i immediately felt like super bad and went to go check their profile and then to see if they had an intro mentioning this. They did not. Nor was it mentioned until afterwards.
And thanks, idfc what you call me 🥰😘
aint nobody's asking you to d-ride. Just to be respectful. And, again, that "minor" is a 21 year old adult bodily. THAT part was said in verification.
Also every time you guys throw around the word "dox" im just gonna start sending all the sources that say what doxxing REALLY is. You guys only have 1 that you keep reusing over and over. There are multiple proving that what yall think doxxing means is NOT what it is.
Doxing - Wikipedia https://share.google/koN8Mh6sq3FAnc3p7
^the wikipedia page on doxxing
Doxxing and Social Media | University Police https://share.google/zOqoovZddI9qyVhSl
^the source YOU guys keep using! In which in no way says usernames are a part of that!
What is Doxing? How to Prevent It & What to Do if You are Doxed https://share.google/ebUPrpHMykmjQLY32
^another source
Personal Cybersecurity and Privacy / Preventing Doxxing | Office of Ethics, Risk, and Compliance Services https://share.google/4TMoZXztiZeA95Yl7
My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
ok so. First of all, it was heavily implied that you were talking about him. First talking about your own kitten and then tagging him, talkin sum "oh but im gonna stay!" Because you dont have the same empathy he had towards his own cat. It was SO clearly targeted towards him.
Secondly, from everything im seeing? YOU guys are the ones harassing. There are no lies. There is straight up evidence that you guys have taken such small things and twisted them in such ways to, quite litetally, IMPACT MY PHYSICALLY DISABLED FRIEND, LEON, AND CAUSE 𝘏𝘐𝘔 PHYSICAL PAIN, AND IMPACT MY FRIEND, MEDKIT, WHO IS MENTALLY UNSTABLE TO THE POINT OF 𝘙𝘌𝘓𝘈𝘗𝘚𝘌.
Add on to this ^ this is ALSO impacting my mental and physical health as well. Ive only just made this account to defend my friends, but have been supporting them from the server and even made my own statement for leon. Both me and Leon are physically stress sick from this situation, and I am currently being evaluated for an orthopedic back situation in which my legs do not allow me to walk or feel them all the time. The stress of this has been making it significantly worse. And i know its impacting Leon's disabilies as well. I will not disclose how, as that is very clearly NOT my medical info to share. Point is: its impacting me and my friend's mental and physical health as well.
You guys are also, from what ive seen, PUSHING him to stay. Cuz yk what? HES STILL TRYING TO DEFEND HIMSELF. DESPITE BEING IN MOURNING.
Its not just your own friend's physical and mental health put on the line. It is also theirs. The people you are going after for EXTREMELY small things. Mostly misunderstandings you refuse to change your thinking to, despite all the clear evidence against your claims.
You are CERTIANLY not being mindful AT ALL to the other side of this. You guys disgust me. Genuinely.
You are a perfect example of what i said in my original post btw. I’m not allowed to mourn because me and my friends are being sent death threats, rape threats. I have to help my friends. You only listen to Leonis, even though he literally just cropped our screenshots and insisted we’re horrible people for wanting accountability from him. Our friends are trying get us to take a break and while I’d fucking love to, there’s people like you coming on to my blog and harassing me over my vent post where I express that I’m upset that I’m not allowed to mourn my kitten. That I have to focus on this 100% all the time or people like you will never stop.
Ok so...genuinely who is sending you guys threats?? Please, provide me with screenshots. Because based on everyone in the server defending him here has been talking about this specifically, none of us have been sending threats. It feels like you guys are sending things that are even remotely close to threats than we are.
and no, I DONT listen to only Leon. Ive been reading yall's stuff too. And I feel like literally anyone, talking to him or not, can see that what you guys are accusing him of is nothing what hes actually doing. You throw around terms, not using them for what they actually mean to cause more disturbance and confusion to try and ruin what reputation he has.
My original reblog was nowhere near harassment. I literally told you to leave him alone with the fact he is mourning. He feels mocked. I would too if someone said something like that, very obviously directed to the fact youre trying to step back to mourn. You would, too. If he said something like that to you, and YOU would react negatively, maybe, and hear me out here, dont say it!
also freak you mean "you people". How do you mean that? Genuinely.
Also hey are we gonna just ignore that the "minor" yall keep accusing him of "jumping" is a 21 year old adult ooorrr....🥹✌🏼
My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
Adding on to this, it's not BS, and the fact that he's sharing the exact same screenshots already shared on @project-solace-callout but either cropped or without crucial details is very telling. He did not show him meatriding the Painter fictive at all, just him shitting on Raven. Even then, he deleted ALL of Raven's messages to make her look bad. There are posted screenshots of him invalidating a minor's boundaries. There are MORE screenshots of him and Medkit shitting on a minor's source memories, posting them publicly and parading them like a spectacle. If you support Leonis you are supporting someone actively hurting minors and you are not welcome.
He is doxxing the usernames of these minors and sending his fanbrats to give these minors rape threats and death threats.
Supporting him in any fashion makes you complicit if not actively a part of it.
Just found out I can see previous reblogs! Sorry, im still new to the platform.
Actually, i believe YOU are the ones leaving out the crucial details here. Youre just genuinely twisting it in a way to get him "canceled", when its honestly backfiring 🥹 also yeah, he DID show us the messages of what you claim to be as "meatriding". He...really wasn't.
also, he wasnt the one who deleted Ravens messages. I dont know why it wont let me send videos, but I have one demonstrating that its autoset to "dont delete any". He doesn't delete messages when he bans. This i DO have screenshots of.
Also, no I have not seen the posts of them allegedly putting someone's source memories down, but get this! Crazy concept! THEY ARE PHYSICALLY A 21 YEAR OLD ADULT. Their internal age is in no way, shape, or form grounds for you calling them a minor.
I do support my friends Leonis and Medkit. They are not hurting minors because, first, there's not more than one, and second, the "minor" in question is, in fact, a 21 YEAR OLD ADULT. Please, PLEASE stop saying theyre a minor. Their internal age does not make them a minor. Coming straight FROM a minor btw!
And i never wanted to be welcome amongst your filth anyways. >XP
Ive said it in the chats once, but you dont get to see those, so ill say it a million times over: screenshotting someone's PUBLIC USERNAME is not doxxing. Doxxing is when you reveal private information about another party. Like their name, address, city, etc. A roblox username or a Discord username is not doxxing another person. Please stop throwing around terms you most certainly do not understand.
I am a supporter and am trying to be more active in both of their defense.
Im going to bed. Its 11:09 pm for me and i need to wake up at 4:35 am. Ill be back tomorrow to respond to everything else
My cat died two days ago, his name was Cheesecake and he was small enough to fit in our hands. And instead of stepping back, we’re still here, protecting our friends. We can’t just step back because he’s just going to keep doing this. He’s not going to stop just because a kitten died. We have to do what we can to help our friends.
Hey, moon here (sebby, one of the mods) to speak up against this. Ive been helping from the discord server and stuff so im probably not that relevant to you lol.
Id just love to remind you that every person grieves and mourns differently. Everyone has different strengths with what they can and cannot handle. If he wants to step back to grieve the loss of an animal that was close to him, let him. I know personally from what is being discussed over and over its also for mental health on top of the mourning of his cat. I understand you lost a kitten 2 days ago, and im sorry for your loss, but just because you can stay here after that and he cannot doesnt mean that he's not doing whats right or "going to keep doing this to other people". First of all, even if you believe hes going to do whatever BS yall have cooked up to "other people", hes stepping back for a moment from like everything based on what we've discussed, and you guys keep bringing him back for stuff. Leave him alone for a bit again until hes ready. He is still 𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨.
Post note: I am not in any way trying to invalidate what happened to you with your cat, but please also dont try to invalidate what happened with his.
I didn’t even bring him up outside the tags and the fact he hasn’t been stopping, because he’s STILL harassing us on alts. He’s still making up lies and talking shit in his discord server, he’s not stepping away like he said he is. I’m saying this because I *can’t* step away. Because my friends mental AND PHYSICAL health are still at stake because of this.
ok so. First of all, it was heavily implied that you were talking about him. First talking about your own kitten and then tagging him, talkin sum "oh but im gonna stay!" Because you dont have the same empathy he had towards his own cat. It was SO clearly targeted towards him.
Secondly, from everything im seeing? YOU guys are the ones harassing. There are no lies. There is straight up evidence that you guys have taken such small things and twisted them in such ways to, quite litetally, IMPACT MY PHYSICALLY DISABLED FRIEND, LEON, AND CAUSE 𝘏𝘐𝘔 PHYSICAL PAIN, AND IMPACT MY FRIEND, MEDKIT, WHO IS MENTALLY UNSTABLE TO THE POINT OF 𝘙𝘌𝘓𝘈𝘗𝘚𝘌.
Add on to this ^ this is ALSO impacting my mental and physical health as well. Ive only just made this account to defend my friends, but have been supporting them from the server and even made my own statement for leon. Both me and Leon are physically stress sick from this situation, and I am currently being evaluated for an orthopedic back situation in which my legs do not allow me to walk or feel them all the time. The stress of this has been making it significantly worse. And i know its impacting Leon's disabilies as well. I will not disclose how, as that is very clearly NOT my medical info to share. Point is: its impacting me and my friend's mental and physical health as well.
You guys are also, from what ive seen, PUSHING him to stay. Cuz yk what? HES STILL TRYING TO DEFEND HIMSELF. DESPITE BEING IN MOURNING.
Its not just your own friend's physical and mental health put on the line. It is also theirs. The people you are going after for EXTREMELY small things. Mostly misunderstandings you refuse to change your thinking to, despite all the clear evidence against your claims.
You are CERTIANLY not being mindful AT ALL to the other side of this. You guys disgust me. Genuinely.
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Okay, so I am just going to say this- Would this not be harassment if it were someone else putting this ask on your page?
"YOU WHORE, YOU BITCH, YOU ASSHOLE, FUCK YOU, FUCK YOU-"
I was not initially going to get more involved than I already had, which was not by much, but now I feel as if I have to, because this has surpassed any original intention of wanting accountability. Messages like this, and the one I've shown in particular, caused Medkit to relapse last night. If whoever sent that message is reading this, are you happy? Is this the accountability you wanted?
Now, I have looked into who Karma is. They are an alter in this person's system (I don't know if the anon in this screenshot is the person I mean, but the person I'm referring to is a system), who has been referred to as Clover in the past, but due to the project solace callout blog saying that this is disrespectful- I will be referring to them as what I have seen is their collective name- Luckyfield. The accusation that has been made is that they were a minor, on top of the previous accusations of harassment and such. These have already been addressed by other people, but I haven't seen anyone address the age aspect of this. While Karma is an alter who has been stated to be younger, Luckyfield is not physically a minor and would not be considered such by legal standards. I wanted to mention this because I have seen threats of taking a legal approach mentioned in this situation before. (Their Username and User ID have been censored for their safety.)
This is just for clarification, because as stated previously, this has been used to accuse both Leonis and Medkit of harassing/permitting the harassment of a minor, while both of them are physically 18, making Luckyfield three years older. I am not stating that this claim is entirely untrue, as Karma is, to my knowledge, a younger alter, but Luckyfield's physical age makes this claim misleading to those who might not have access to this information.
Moving on to this person's claims about Karma's trauma, I have been told that this alter has some trauma involving their Sebastian dying. Medkit's supposed "parading of trauma" in question seems to be them making jokes about *their* character, which is their version of Sebastian, not Karma/Luckyfield's. This is not to invalidate anything or anyone, but I feel that in the case of Medkit, joking about *their* character/version of a character, while it might have still upset Karma/Luckyfield, does not read as targeting to me. I am not a system myself, so take that statement with a grain of salt. If you have screenshots/messages proving this wrong, I would be happy to read through them and change my mind on this...but given the fact you guys would not give a crumb of sources to Leon when you claimed that transpecies is a radqueer term, and he only got a source (which begged to differ on your point) when someone who wasn't even initially involved got asked to cover the situation...I don't expect any special treatment.
The above image is the history of transpecies, and the one below is for radqueer.
I did not want to get involved, especially because I was worried about the risks of harassment, but the post made shitting on Leon for grieving an animal that helped him through a dark point in his life, the previous degrading statements of calling Medkit a "lapdog", and now directly insulting them on their pages to the point of them physically hurting themselves has me very upset to say the VERY least. Grieving for another living creature you loved does not AT ALL imply that you don't care about another person's life. I had a dog that would wait right outside my door whenever I wasn't in the home I was meant to be in, one I had grown up with since early elementary, and one that I might never see again because I had to cut ties with the parent who still has him. If or when I find out that dog is gone, I am going to grieve for a damn long time, and I had it much better than a lot of people during the time that dog reminded me that there were always people who loved me, waiting for me to come home. It is practically a societal standard by now to see a beloved pet as part of the family, and I myself subscribe to that belief, so it is insane to see someone shit on another person for missing an animal, let alone use that to accuse him of lacking empathy towards other people.
Believe what you will, I'm probably not the best person to ask about this situation overall, but I can't help but feel that this has gone from wanting accountability to just wanting to hurt someone's feelings- or wanting to hurt them. This is not to claim that Leon or Medkit are perfect little angels who can do no wrong, but calling people whores isn't gonna make anyone take your word on things any faster. While the statements I've mentioned frustrate me to the high heavens, I don't wish any harm on anyone. I wish for healing, peace, and brighter days ahead for everyone. Call me ignorant or a dumb little bimbo bitch for being optimistic, but I'd like to think there's a time in the future where we can just move on with our lives and be happy. As for the people running the @project-solace-callout blog, that wish includes all of you, too. I wish you happier days, and I hope you all can move forward, find enjoyment in the things you love, and find or even create a space that better suits your comfort and needs. However, if you or anyone else would like to continue sending in asks with the same language as the first screenshot in this post, I humbly offer my asks as a target, and, in the best case, the only target. Let my page be a punching bag if it means everyone, you all included, can go on with their day. I apologize for my language and coming off as "pissy", but I just could not keep quiet anymore. This, in my eyes, has degraded into nothing more than bullying, and if anyone has to receive messages like that shown- I'd rather it be me. All I ask is that if someone takes me up on that offer, be creative, I've heard just about everything that could be said about me six inches from the mirror lol.
Once again, if anything I've said is not accurate or factual, I will be happy to take the post down once I have been shown evidence to the contrary. I do not support any harmful paraphilias, and I do not wish to at any point in the present or future, so if someone could provide me a source that confirms that transpecies is involved with this or radqueer ideology, I will gladly follow up this post with a self-correction. Thank you.
Trigger warning; mildly irritated post about folk who think I'm some sort of coward for taking a break
Suicidal mentions, SH mentions, SA mentions, and a bit of in depth explanations of traumatic events. Animal death mention and hallucinatory mentions.
For the record: I do not plan on acting out on any thoughts. The point of this post is to explain that if I do not step away those thoughts may get to a point where I want to, and I refuse to fall to that point right now.
For the record, I am very suicidal when it comes to my dead cat. Unless you want me to kill myself I think I'm doing the proper thing by stepping back.
Like I'm sorry but if this bullshit is more important to you than actual human lives then I think you need to refocus because you're just going to be an asshole if one of your friends ends up in the same spot as you.
I hallucinated this fucking cat for years. I wrote about him. Even in death he literally kept me alive during middle and high school which are times I very highly wanted to commit suicide. Only in recent years did I discover that I can in fact hallucinate and that the "ghost" I had believed in was probably just that. And yeah, that was rough for me. I had genuinely believed his ghost had watched over me for years. You may say "that's dumb" but may I remind you I was in an abusive household that called me insane 24/7 so of course I clung to the idea of something supernatural and sentimental keeping me safe. Max was everything to me.
I ran away when I was sixteen. Meaghan, my stepmother, wanted to call the cops on me because I had vented about my father and told her I didn't appreciate her putting down my problems. She left a physical mark on my arm that day. I left behind another cat that saved my life. Her name was Ava. She's still alive but I may never see her again.
I have very specific emotional responses when it comes to my cats. Especially ones I've lost or left behind. I fought my parent in order to take my cat right now, for over a year about it too.
I am genuinely so physically messed up that I've had to pause when typing this because my entire body tremors so bad that my phone shakes and I can't read the screen. I have physical tremors in reaction to things that should give me basic anxiety. These physical tremors cause worsening pain that leads my body to ache severely or create sickness. This has always been around, it's not new. At some point they were so bad I looked into damn seizures (though luckily after some research they were ruled out quite easily) and I still can't figure out why they happen or what they could be stemming from to this day.
Before someone goes "ugh you haven't spoken to a doctor" my doctor is not great at all and I'm in the process of moving to an adult one since I am now 18. I also live in America. Healthcare isn't great here guys, much less around stuff like this. Hopefully I get lucky with my new doctor.
I have been clean since August 1st, 2024. I am attempting to stay that way. I am not disappearing, I am stepping back. I'm still active. I'm just letting myself stop engaging with people who would rather see me dead then try to sort out what started as a misunderstanding.
And I wasn't kidding about one of them already having been warned a couple times in chat and VC. Staff was instructed to keep an eye out because they had made several members feel uncomfortable or disrespected already.
"Leonis wants people dead" anyone harassing on my behalf is not on my behalf at all. anyone truly doxxing, sending threats, or condoning awful statements towards any side should fuck off entirely. Especially if they're wishing death or harm.
But I do find it interesting, considering...
One of you told someone to kill themselves. Granted it was a zeal supporter, and those guys are scum for obvious reasons. But you disrespected the already very well known wishes of Ren to not tell people to kill themselves. You actively and genuinely believed that suicide was a better option than anything. You actively continue to harass folks to points of the brink of relapsing.
I assume since you believe I'm some murderer and such, you want me to do the same. You want me to kill myself. You have no true value of a human life simply because you don't like that human life.
I do not want anyone to kill themselves. I do not want anyone to be insulted. And Jesus fuck, I'm aroace and exclusively with my boyfriend, stop acting like I'm constantly sexually assaulting someone when I've never done that in my damn life. I am a fucking victim myself and am overall adverse to anything sexual. I'm not Zeal, and that's one of the most insensitive comparisons to make. That isn't a statement easily forgiven.
Holy shit y'all really can't hold any goddamn ideas what it's like to be in other's shoes. You couldn't imagine what it would be like to be dehumanized simply because you felt abused and used by "friends". And if you can, why did you all turn around and do it to innocent people? Not me. Other innocent people. The people you've called bootlickers and lapdogs and accused of bribing me like they're robots and I'm the big bad machine.
Those are human beings.
In fact, BECAUSE of this, some of them are now my friends.
And for the record before any specific person thinks this is a target towards them, it's towards anyone who's actively participated in harassment, whether you personally knew me or not. It's a frustration post.
You're spying on innocent people in a discord server. Including quite a few minors mind you as the server is 13+, as you would know.
You are actively spreading misinformation and it's come to the point other large blogs have looked through and backed me up. Ones I have never even talked to before this.
I want you to understand that my mental health isn't a "defense" it's fucking real. And I'm insanely proud of myself for stepping back because when I was sexually exploited and harassed what, two or three years ago, I continued to fight and nearly committed suicide over it because I pushed myself too far.
My break isn't about you. It's about staying safe and keeping myself from getting to that point again. After all I've seen how people on the internet handle someone's ideations many times. I still hope that an old friend lives on because I haven't seen her in over a year now and she was often dealing with ideation.
But yeah. I haven't stopped helping my friends. Especially the ones who need help with healing or support right now. There's a group chat for some of us to talk, to vent, to support. I still talk actively in my server. I am just trying to stop handling moderation for a bit since I have mods willing to take over while I stay safe.
I'd say over fifty of you now have actively showed that you care about the well-being of me and those involved. I really hope that you know you are deeply appreciated for it. Whether that was a like, a DM, or a hug reaction on discord, I saw it and so did others. All of it really means a lot and honestly has reminded me I'm still human.
I have been constantly advised that it's being done for chaos and attention. Another reason I'm backing away. I've proven my point, I'll let you prove it further. And for anyone else, I figured I'd share some of my story since people seem to believe I cannot have any sort of trauma.
Anyone who is struggling with severe ideation, please reach out to someone trusted or a helpline if possible. You deserve to be on this earth and you deserve to heal, even if you've hurt people in the past. You deserve to get better and become the person you want to be. It'll take time, but, you're worth so much more than you'll ever understand. You're enough.
