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Pantalone expressions ^^ if you can tell who's who, gg ( I'll link below for a reminder )

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In a case like this, if Mic gets an admirer, he'd really try and mold them into a version of them that fits his own perception ( which would resemble / him / ) he'd call it freeing them from the shackles of society and others might see it as "corrupting", but in general what he'd do is really try to push that person beyond their limits

` I lost my friend

Been observing my Pantalone through writing for months and I think I finally got a grip on his psychological profile, I'll write under the proper description as observed by Dottore 🫶🏻

His psychological profile as well as his medical profile are available to Dottore only and he was diagnosed by him.

He has different disorders that will present differently at different times, and different parts hold different symptoms / characteristics :

As observed by Dottore :

There have been significant mood swings with a major depressive state, differing behaviors, severe gaps in memory, dissociative behaviors, paranoid episodes that can turn full-blown psychotic, obsessive-compulsive behaviors, substance abuse, self-destructive and reckless behaviors, delusions of grandeur, increased confidence bordering mania, but not quite.

The symptoms grouped together can be categorized into three different ways in a DID system with at least 3 distinct identities ( or more, varying ).

Holder 1 : “Pantalone / Regrator” ー he is the front and social mask. His role consists in interacting with the world, seeking success, and hiding the internal brokenness. He holds the NPD traits.

Holder 2 : “Alexander” ー he carries the inner thought process of surviving by any means necessary. He is cold, calculating, hyper-vigilant, and fiercely suspicious of others ( hence the paranoid traits ). He does not trust anyone and believes the world is inherently hostile. To protect the self, he lacks empathy, ignores social rules, and can be ruthlessly manipulative or aggressive ( hence ASPD ) without feeling guilt.

Holder 3 : “Tianyu” ー he is the one who carries the heavy emotional burden. He tries to keep order, and is most affected by the biological mental health struggles. Overwhelmed by severe obsessions ( such as fears of harm, or losing control ) and spends hours performing rigid, repetitive rituals (OCD) to keep the system ` safe. This alter is often the most visibly affected when the biological Bipolar II dips into a severe depressive episode. “Tianyu” is the one who seems to often slide between two different ages, the unhealed, afraid child and the emotional adult who acts in the exact same way.

“Regrator” is the one who completely despises Baizhu and any form of connection, and would try to constantly destroy them all for the sake of security. “Alexander” is indifferent.

As Dottore has noticed, treatment often seems difficult when each holder / alter responds differently to different triggers, or often refuses treatment.

Bipolar II and OCD are monitored heavily, as well as the impulsive and reckless behaviors, and the paranoid thoughts.

The personality disorders, he sees nothing wrong with. He only interferes when it comes in the way of Pantalone's job.

Despite diagnosis, Dottore has judged that Pantalone reacts too strongly to attempts at healing or dealing with past, and even with separating the identity of “Pantalone” into different parts. He is more comfortable being seen as one person, and refuses acknowledging more.

Moth to a flame .

#dottolone

This is based on a rp with a friend, the context is Dottore confessed first, and Tianyu / Pantalone had been holding back for so long until one sentence was said, and I'll write below his response ^^

ー Zandik

He knows what Tianyu waits for, too.

Waits for the cage to be broken. But the golden cage of his mind . . . is one he can’t force open. )

For as many years as I have left, I will support and supply you with enough resources, technology and materials to reach our shared

goals.

( He smiles more to himself, a tired one; leisurely cupping onto their right hand and bow to it, hover his lips above the rings without any physical contact. )

Do not feel repulsed by me. I won’t ask you to feel the same.

ー Tianyu

( Then what was he doing .ᐣ

Why would he try and unlock

Those galaxies of emotions .ᐣ

They've been festering for

Centuries. Even they were unaware

Of the extent of them. All they knew

Was that everyone else had to deal

With their anger every single day,

So much that many

agents would rather kill

Themselves than deal with

Any verbal lashing from the 9th.

Everyone was accustomed to that

Version of him. What about the rest .ᐣ

What about the rest of those tidal

Waves ⎯⎯ that were engulfed in

A darkness that were only familiar

to Tianyu alone .ᐣ

He wasn't sure why, but that

Last sentence had his mind twist

And turn, and then morph into

Something else. Repulsed .ᐣ

Yes. There was a part of him

That shook him violently

From within.

𝑨𝒇𝒇𝒆𝒄𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒊𝒔 𝒅𝒊𝒔𝒈𝒖𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 .ᐟ

𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒐𝒇𝒇 . 𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒕𝒐 𝑳𝑬𝑨𝑽𝑬 .

𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒇𝒐𝒐𝒍 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒍𝒅 , 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆

𝒊𝒔 𝑵𝑶 𝑹𝑶𝑶𝑴 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 .

And yet, another voice sang

A different song.

𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑡 .

𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒

𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒 . 𝐼'𝑣𝑒 𝑏𝑒𝑒𝑛

𝑤𝑎𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑦 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑜𝑛𝑒

𝑒𝑙𝑠𝑒 , 𝑡𝑜𝑜 .

𝑰𝑻 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑲𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝒀𝑶𝑼 .

𝐼 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡 𝑖𝑡 .

𝑯𝑬 𝑾𝑰𝑳𝑳 𝑼𝑺𝑬 𝑰𝑻 𝑨𝑮𝑨𝑰𝑵𝑺𝑻 𝒀𝑶𝑼 .

𝐼 𝑐𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑔𝑎𝑖𝑛𝑠𝑡 ℎ𝑖𝑚 𝑡𝑜𝑜 , 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 .

𝑵𝑶 𝑶𝑵𝑬 𝑰𝑵 𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑺 𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑳𝑫 𝑪𝑨𝑵

𝑪𝑨𝑹𝑹𝒀 𝑺𝑼𝑪𝑯 𝑬𝑴𝑶𝑻𝑰𝑶𝑵𝑺

𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯 𝑮𝑬𝑵𝑼𝑰𝑵𝑬 𝑪𝑨𝑹𝑬 .

𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑚𝑒 .ᐣ

𝑬𝑺𝑷𝑬𝑪𝑰𝑨𝑳𝑳𝒀 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝗬𝗢𝗨 .

𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑲𝑵𝑶𝑾 𝒀𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑺𝑬𝑳𝑭 . 𝒀𝑶𝑼

𝑯𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑫 𝑰𝑻 𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑬𝑺 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑻𝑰𝑴𝑬𝑺

𝑨𝑮𝑨𝑰𝑵 . 𝒀𝑶𝑼 𝑨𝑹𝑬 𝑨𝑵 𝑶𝑷𝑷𝑶𝑹𝑻𝑼𝑵𝑰𝑺𝑻𝑰𝑪

𝑯𝒀𝑷𝑶𝑪𝑹𝑰𝑻𝑬 𝑾𝑯𝑶 𝑰𝑺 𝑾𝑶𝑹𝑻𝑯 𝑵𝑶𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑵𝑮 .

𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑒𝑡 ,

ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑡𝑖𝑙𝑙 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑠 𝑚𝑒 .

He wasn't sure whose voices

Those were. Why they were

Fighting about the current

Situation or any other situation. )

Repulsed .ᐣ

( He says aloud.

His tone was undecipherable.

It was soft, low, but held within

A deeper shadowed emotion.

He opens both eyes, half-lidded,

Staring back at the doctor. )

. . . No, I do not feel the same,

Doctor .

( He responds calmly,

Offering a gentle, polite

Smile. )

I've ｎｅｖｅｒ felt the same

At all, and I 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 will .

( He continues staring

Coldly, with a

seemingly kind

Smile plastered on his face. )

I used to believe obsession

was something suffered

by lesser men . When I met

You, I found out that perhaps

I was one of them, too .

You say that you have a few

Many years left . You could die

Tomorrow . You could drop dead

and writhe right in front of me,

I would not jump in to come and save

You . That is the thing, doctor .

( He raises his head, staring

Down his nose at the other,

Condescendingly. )

I would survive your death .

I would live on .

My life will continue as

Usual .

( And then, the corners

Of their eyes soften, if only

A little. )

I would survive your death . .

But I know I wouldn't want

To, anymore .

There isn't a future that

I have imagined that does

Not involve you .

There is no corner that

I watch where I do not

Hope to see you .

Should you die before me,

Doctor ⎯⎯⎯⎯ I will continue

exactly as before . I will attend

meetings, sign contracts, and make fortunes . My empire will grow, but

The remnants of my hearts would

Have died with you .

Every moment afterwards

Would be nothing but torture .

I do not look forward to

Imagining your shadow only

To be met with a ghost, nor

Hear a voice that sounds like

Yours and end up speaking to

Only what I remember of you .

One day, I will forget you .

When too long would have

Passed, you would be nothing

But history .

And when that time comes,

( he leans a little closer,

Eyes fully blank. )

I would search and search

For what it is that I am missing,

Only to find nothing at all .

I would rather death comes

For me than end up facing

Such dreadful ends .

Before you, I lacked warmth .

It took you one night .

One ー for centuries to come undone .

My whole 𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇 was rewritten to fit 𝒚𝒐𝒖 .

I called you cruel the other day .

Cruel, yes .

I was fine before knowing

Your warmth . Now I cannot

Live without it, and like a moth,

I will die with it .

I want to die with it .

( He finally pauses,

Leaning back once more,

Retracting his hand to rest

It on his cane. )

. . .

So no, doctor .

We do not feel the same .

( Not canon segments! I'll link below my hcs as usual )

Since they don't look as they do in headspace, you can imagine how it goes sometimes

( on the side, I drew an example of how Evdomos and gamma look like )

Side note !

The reason why gamma looks like that ( very similar to Pantalone ) is because he partially introjected Pantalone ; another note is Omega's specific aversion to the color green ー it subconsciously reminds him of sumeru, meaning he wouldn't approach any foods or items with this color. Some other segments feel the same, but none as much as Omega.

As for Zan, that's not his actual hair color, although his hair does have bits of green, reminiscent of aranara, for comfort

And here's some more segments in headspace!

Just thought what would happen if Pantalone / Tianyu actually lost his Dottore too, what would he do afterwards.... ( I'll explain below the original headcanons so it makes sense how baizhu and panta are twins ^^ )

Both were born about 400 yrs ago. As Tianyu detested the kindness of his brother that was shown to strangers after they struggled both too much, he left that one night. After waiting for his return, Baizhu had assumed his brother had died, just as their parents had died from an illness none could cure.

On the night Tianyu left, he was attacked and killed by a vampire, then turned, too. He became extremely weak without blood, as vampirism acts like an illness. The one time he managed to return, and they were both still teenagers, Baizhu had been granted a vision for his kindness and openness to others, and his determination to help people afterwards. After Tianyu had witnessed his brother being blessed from afar, he still Refused to return and chose to diverge entirely, swearing revenge.

The events that occur afterwards are similar to canon, except Tianyu was passed around from doctor to doctor until reaching Dottore's lab at around 20 years old. At that time, Dottore similarly takes Interest in Tianyu mostly for the vampirism and chooses instead to see what he can do to improve such a new condition.

As their relationship developed, Tianyu brings up his brother dilemma to him and they both discuss it over time.

Dottore suggests experimenting on freezing Soul and body in time, which would later on help with the creation of his segments.

Baizhu was then captured by the Fatui at the request of Dottore, while at the same time, Tianyu climbed in ranks to become the 9th Harbinger. The experiment was successful, And Baizhu was thus frozen in time, asleep, for an extended duration of time.

Pantalone's goal was to awaken his brother in a time and place he wouldn't recognize, first to make him feel exactly how he felt when he woke up as a vampire, and two, so he would still be alive To witness the world change exactly how he wishes for it to be.

Baizhu would then awaken confused with no recollection of the past, continuing his life still at the age he was frozen into. After that, his life continued much like canon, meeting Changsheng and all.

Idk man rip pulcinella, imagine having to deal with Pantalone and Dottore