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So derlord knows this is an ask blog? Doesnt he know that we care? ;u; infinite knowledge of the viewer's infinite love? Oh i guess this is to derlord specifically. Don't YOU know that WE care?
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I'm literally so late to the party but I just watched Destroying a World That Doesn't Exist for the first time and oh my god?? It's so good?? And gay???? I was NOT prepared for how obsessed I am
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Avery can’t look at sunsets anymore because the red reminds him of Derek.
Poppy’s are ruined for him and he feels sick if he passes by a flower shop.
Fireworks trap the air in his lungs and he has to leave immediately or else he’ll break down in the middle of the street.
The guilt rises each time and chokes him with how violent it is. It never gets better, always an open wound that the world seems sickly content at wrenching open whenever it shows signs of healing.
“Missing him” isn’t even enough, not when he never really knew him yet the jagged hole in his soul says otherwise.
I think for a while about how Avery doesn’t know what Derek sounds like. And it makes the tragedy of everything he did for Derek just that bit more painful and insane.
Derek knows everything about Avery, he knows his voice intimately. But Avery does not. The Minecraft chat gives him nothing but words from a guy he’s never seen or heard in real life. But he doesn’t need to know those things.
His selflessness and compassion and determination push him to the brink for Derek. A man he doesn’t know, but he’s willing to risk his life for simply because Derek is a human being too and he deserves it.
Augh, thinking of both of them thinking the other deserves to live at the expense of their own life and livelihood.
"And thanks to you, I got a chance to see all the beauty of the universe. Things I never even knew were in the world. Or could be. A chance no human will ever get again. I'm grateful that I saw it all. Even if it was just for a little."
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Rant below 👇
I had planned this comic for quite sometime now, since the start of June actually, but now I can say I'm done with this little project of mine. I also wanted to at least contribute to the fandom and since I can't frickin animate (looking at my hands in misery) I decided the next best thing, comics!
It was inspired by many things and yes it was based off of What is Love? by Twice the K-pop idol group. I based Derek from two characters ( three as a honorary member I guess) but this rant would've been three times longer than it should be so I won't get into detail.
Derek, in my opinion, is someone who is curious about the littlest things ever since he was a child, his drive to know more about the world is pretty evident across SFAWTDE, even if it's just surface level considering we don't really know his thought process that much (Compared to Avery that is) .
Which is his strongest strength but also what lead to his own downfall, his own selflessness and his care for both the Avery and the world is what kept him going in DAWTDE. I believe that D3rlord3 could turn against Avery, he is smart enough to understand that he is powerless against the King as Derek had many chances to work with him (across those days and months stuck to his computer), but he didn't because if Derek did then he might as well betraying his own beliefs.
Okay I'm getting a bit sidetracked here 🥲🥲
This comic is me trying to explore Derek a bit more as a character, since love is a general topic that I think anyone can understand (I won't go into detail here).
And I am also just a sucker for characters who are smart but dumb at the same time when it comes to their own affections and feelings. ( I drink it like how Derek drinks his smoothies 😏😏😏)
I am aware that many people portrayed D3rlord3 as someone who had accepted that he is in love with Avery right from the beginning of his demise, but I personally wanted to twist it a bit. Which comes to my main theme of this comic;
"What if he realized his feelings a tad bit too late?"
Derek is someone who puts others first as we can tell from bits and pieces sprinkled across DAWTDE and at the end of SFAWTDE where even as his mind is deteriorating by the second he still made the effort to at least warn Avery. Which I concluded (and most people before me had also) that Derek doesn't care for himself that much but he cares for others and that is what matters to him the most.
I think that's all from me, I've kept you here way too long. I had fun drawing each of the panels, heck I don't care if it flops.
But if you want to hear me rant more on my thoughts of this comic or just Derek in general, my asks are always open. I'll answer them to the best of my capabilities. 😋😋
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