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it hurts to know whats best

i’m very complicated in the way i don’t even understand myself sometimes

the future is so unpredictable, the past is lingering and the present feels numb

your like if a sleep paralysis was evil and real

lowkey feel like someone blind folded me spun me around then told me to balance on a rock above a 300 foot drop while someones waiting to push you at any moment

my regret will eat me alive until its just bones with what it could have been

some nights just never end

i saw the lights from that train from miles away and i still let it hit me

i tried to save you but i ended up drowning myself

just lovebombing myself with memories

the angels told me

i have so much empathy yet i can’t feel any for myself

the fisherman wanted ME first , and i fought the hook but he got me . and i got to see a new world i was starting to enjoy it . i was filled with bliss and i felt loved and wanted . the fisherman just threw me back into the water like i was nothing , he didn’t tell me why ,i tried swimming back but he already left looking for a new fish .

something about a sunset makes you want to leave