surely there is a line somewhere that differentiates a brave hope and foolishness. I guess faith wouldn’t be so prominent in religion, if it was easy to believe in something when you have all the reason not to. But how do you know? How would you know? You don’t. I guess that’s the fucking point

I’ve strayed so unbelievably far from love

I’m familiar w the unfair pains of life but there’s truly nothing like wishing somebody cared more. u think ur strong and have boundaries until u want someone to love u more than u want anything in the damn world and they just don’t want u like how u want them. There’s all sorts of dangers in life, some nasty things like alcohol or drugs or sex that can pull u down a rabbit hole and strip you of your will. But there just isn’t anything that has taken the wheel of my life like this. I understand how people lose themselves, entirely. I’ve recovered from everything else in life that’s been thrown at me. But how can you recover from knowing the person you wanted to spend the rest of your life with, doesn’t feel that way anymore? Calling it a break up undermines it imo. I don’t really know what else to compare it to. I’m full of analogies, that’s how I share ideas in conversation. But idk what to say about this one. Just feels like death, in vain.