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When a Life Goes Down in Flames Photo credit Isabella Divine For a moment, I watched my own life go up, or rather, DOWN in flames as if I stood as a spectator, and nothing really affected me.  For a blissful few seconds, my heart felt cold and empty, but then I felt the fire engulf it as it suddenly burst into a fiery, doomed thing no mortal could survive without some sort of Divine…

Things I Don’t Say Lighthouse by Allison Divine, painting and photography Sometimes it hits you like a freight train running through your heart Other times it sneaks up like a cat in the dark And I don’t know which is worse, but I always find myself alone Holding on to the ground I thought I was standing on No one ever comes to save me here Even though Jesus will one day take my tears But…

They All Think It’s You photo by Allison Divine Everybody’s crazy now Everything is crazy too I hear all the words they say There’s no way they’re all true This world makes you believe a lie And fight against the truth Everybody’s crazy now And they all think it’s you. I’ve been watching it all fall apart Since I was just a kid Back when I ran barefoot And wasn’t shamed when I…

How I Found Out Photo of Daddy by Allison Divine Maybe the worst thing a grown child can do Is make you think they don’t care anything about you And in the grand scheme when they don’t text or call Have you discover you don’t matter at all Maybe it’s worse when they don’t ever say How grateful they are you decided to stay And you didn’t give up when they knew that  you should But you…

A song about depression Photo by Stormseeker on Unsplash I feel all right Just close to dying Stay here tonight In case I go And I don’t know why But I keep on trying I think I might Finally let go The winds blow change But no change for me I’m wandering lost Beside an endless sea The water is calling But if I give in I’ll let it take me I won’t come back again Flowers are…

If you want to be in a relationship with me, you must follow these rules! Photo by Siora Photography on Unsplash Do not use God’s name in vain. No peeing off the porch. Don’t leave your turkey track undies where I can see them. In fact, just throw them away! Do NOT stand on the other side of the room, grab your privates, and say, “Come over here and get you some of this!” Do not grab any…

Song of Confrontation Photo by Anastasia Saldatava on Unsplash Well, here you are standing on the edge and looking down No doubt you’re remembering what you traded and what you’ve found And everything you used to love and think that mattered You see left on the ground, thrown, broken and shattered Did you get what you were after or is your world so black You can’t even work the courage up…

A Tribute to My Father This is maybe not the best thing I’ve ever written. It’s just an honest look at the man who was my father.  My Daddy died when I was 18 years old, which at this point, was a long time ago. I didn’t think I’d be able to go on without him at the time. I’d never suffered such a devastating loss. I was just a kid. Daddy’s Little Girl. I remember the overwhelming pain in my…

I will be forever changed. Image by congerdesign from Pixabay I want to tell you where you messed up, so maybe you have a chance to get it right next time, with somebody else. Maybe what you did to me didn’t seem like such a big deal to you. You’re probably young enough that you can say you have your whole life ahead of you, but as we recently established (quite by accident on my part), I…

We Still Have Hope Photo by christopher nettuno on Unsplash When the guineas came through my yard, they sounded like they were laughing or holding some kind of conversation I wasn’t invited to be a part of. It’s fine. None of my business what they were going on about. Sky might’ve been falling or something. Who cares? It’s fallen before. At one time there were twelve of them, and then there…

I'm terrified of going back to work after retiring!

I’m Working Harder to Stay Home Than I Worked at Work Photo by Ana Achim on Unsplash I retired July 1, 2023. It was my birthday, and the first available date for retirement, and buddy, you better believe I took it! I was miserable at my job. In fact, I’d been miserable for 24 long years, but I worked for the state government, and I was vested, so I couldn’t just drop everything and run like I…

Waiting On God It’s so hard. It’s easy to think our only obligation is to ask God for something and just wait to see it happen. Or to see IF it happens. And in the event we don’t get what we ask for, we say, “I guess it just wasn’t in God’s plans.” God’s plans. He laid them all out a long time ago. Gave the blueprints to a bunch of different guys who put them all together in a book we call…

Sometimes the voices in your head are trying to tell you something important.

Turns Out They’re a Memory Trying to Burst Through Photo by Adelade Mbuyazi on Unsplash All this time, and I mean since childhood, I thought I was fighting off a mental illness. I’d be going about my life in as normal of a way as I can (I’m not normal, but I’m not crazy either), and all of a sudden I would hear the voices. I don’t know how many poems and stories I’ve written about them. And…

They’re the People That You Meet Each Day Photo by Never Dull Studio on Unsplash The thing about having once been the victim of bullying is that you don’t forget. I don’t care the level of bullishness you experienced, whether it be mild or severe, it’s something that sticks with you for life. So, when it rolls around again, you don’t fail to recognize it, even if you don’t always acknowledge…

Living a life of solitude does not mean you're not okay, it just means you process things differently.

I’m Okay, I Promise Photo by Ben White on Unsplash Some of us exist inside ourselves, and although we love those we love fiercely and without the reserve we save for the rest of the universe, we don’t always reach out to them in normal lines of communication because we are complete within ourselves. It’s not that we don’t need anyone else to survive, though at times it would seem to be true,…

It’s No Wonder Our World Is In Trouble Photo by Michael Marais on Unsplash Once upon a time, people went out of their way to be considerate to others. No? Well, that’s the way I remember it. Long before social media, if you had a conversation, it was either on the phone or face to face, and you couldn’t really say things hiding behind a cloud of anonymity and a keyboard. Those days are sadly…