Improvement

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Alright, guys, it's time to lock in. October 2024, my service dog Thrya passed away in a car crash where I was rear-ended by an 18-wheeler semi truck. I have been terrible with eating out of comfort and trying to manage without my Thrya. Nothing is okay, and I have gained about 20-25lbs. I'm crawling back to Tumblr with a bang. I'm doing a 72-hour liquid fast. I'm in college, and I just turned 18. My friend group only sees each other during dinner, and I don't eat any other time of the day, so just getting it passed them is important. I've been walking 2-4 miles every day, and it's freezing where I am right now, so the cold will burn extra calories. Wish me luck, guys. I will be tracking my meals here after I get done with my fasting. I'll post the timer, too.

I binged, and I feel horrid about it, I jumped from 133 to 139 in two days😭. It kills me and my friends that know how I am with food and knew I don't want to eat. They keep making me eat, and as soon as my food routine changes, I binge. I want to die. Why is it this difficult. It may be TMI though my weight fluctuates alot heavier as I'm about to be on my period but I don't care, this body is stupid all of my hard work down the drain because of my dearest friends, my horrible habits and my idiotic natural body workings. Stupid hormones and impulse control I was doing amazing the past week and now this. It makes me want to sob. I just want everything to be perfect, I can do that in every other part of my life, so why not fcking this part.