m's visual journal

Lea & Sara this summer

Denisa in Croatia

Ornella and me

self-portrait taken 367 days ago

/ self-portrait taken on a rooftop im croatia while the sun was setting and i was feeling so lost and didn't know how to fix it.

"I've got so many preconceptions about myself from the past. I guess we all have, but mine have been standing in my way unquestioned for so long and I'm tired of it. Maybe it started with realising that "I have zero creative talent" was wrong; it fundamentally changed my life. And up till last year I thought I was heterosexual even though things were obviously not adding up, but I never questioned them. And of course you don't have to question everything, but what if something just doesn't feel right? Maybe I am asexual, maybe I'm just carrying the scars from a relationship that was way too early for me, maybe it's something different altogether, I don't know. But I want to figure it out. I have to."

just outside your reach / film accidents

(it hurts.)

"And I guess that’s what I’ve missed desperately last week – showing myself naked. I desire it so much, the need almost hurts. Especially when the opportunity to bare my soul lies in front of me but I don’t have to courage to throw myself into it. Because the other person might not be interested. Or ready. I might be too much, I tend to be. But I’m never going to find it out if I don’t express myself and my cowardice is probably what wears me out at the end. My biggest enemy." [Day 22, 18/07/18, Belgrade]

let me inside

summer on your skin

Kaja

and i'm feeling so messy all i want to do is to connect connect connect and feel like it's okay to feel the way i do, that it's human, that i'm not alone in this.

the future is as uncertain as ever but today i'm not afraid.

Denisa

/ me by my friend Denisa