for now I am winter

how to love a god: i.  stay away from him. legends are never boys. gods were never people. gods do not love. ii.  despise him. who does he think he is? the proud jaw, those seaborne arms, fleeting sparrow-feet planted on the earth as if the world belonged to him? iii.  watch. the quick turn of mouth, the gold of his hair backlit against the sun shining like a halo. if you get too close he’ll burn you to ash. if you get too close he’ll destroy you. iv.  watch him watch you. v.  when he kisses you back hold your breath. do not breathe. you are only a small and foolish boy chasing the tail of a meteor destined for the heavens. if you breathe, you will burn. vi.  making love to him feels like building a home, doesn’t it? here, the oars of his shoulders. here, the temple of his thighs. here, his mouth whispering your name in worship. vii.  when the war comes watch his laughter grow cold and his hands tender themselves red. that is a statue in your bed. that is a man turned to stone from ten thousand stares. viii.  you put on his clothes on to save him from himself.   you put his clothes on to spend your last breath inside him again. ix. you know what will happen and you do it anyway. you burn because this is what it means to love. this is what it means to fly. x. recall the tale of Icarus. choose to be Icarus.

You will always be my favourite ghost.

EA’s press conference be like:

when u write a good AU about ur loser friend not bein a loser and he still bitch