punk dude adventures.

I was out in public but i was doing great feeling good i did my laundry today and chilled with a friend at home but besides those times i was stoned or getting that way being with a friend i love the new movements album. Hella Deep, touching and hit close to home. Its 11:41 right now and every thing ive done today i just feel very drained.my family doesn't understand that this constant. Anxiety and ptsd and depression ive became the rock msn again like in full circle "but nothing changes in real Life" im still hurting and im still struggling. My aunt thinks I'm just fine and sprung back to life like. No. I just tried to end my life andIm still I trying to get it back and running. I know bring on benzos is bad but theyve always been my la st fucking Re s o r t. And you don't think i feel shitty about being in them in the first place a and reminding me that people use it as a drug and Shoot it up ecf. Like honestly i know my drugs i know that because you and m my mom sold them my whole life and i started doing them my self. Im using then as a stabilization med among the various other drugs Im on.so fuck the things you say to try and fear mongering off part of my meds that are working for me. My while Damn life has been medicated. Iwas in and out of that same mental hospital for 2 years straight. So don't tell me shit.

So ive been seeing a gender therapist so that i get my letter for Testosterone. Well i talked to him about my life/trauma ive been through that ive repressed and how i think i have ptsd "which i definintly do" it was opening a can of worms, a little bit at a time. But then it made flash backs more frequent. I started to get depressed about my life. The flash backs were too much. And so i got suicidal. And during one of the flash backs while i was dissociated i cut my self. For the first time in years. So when i came to from it i freaked out and i didn't tell anyone bc it would be one of the one time things but the next day i cut myself purposefully. I wanted out of my constant anxiety and now worse ptsd. I took half a bottle of my anxiety meds and then sat in my room to see what over dosing on these would feel like. It was pretty bad but not too bad smoked some weed jammed some music.

Hot boxing like we normally do

Holloweed was lit asf fuck i was a punk rock zombie

Head banger hair pre costume holloween jam out session with the squad Holloweed was hella lit

Awhile at my dads. They decorated their yard. Average suburban community stuff

Theres so many moose blood quotes that could fit this aesthetic board

Stoned boy, stoned boy with dog. Onyx is my friend dog she adopted a couple days ago and he really likes my i think it's the essential oils plus for some reason animals love me lol

In Suburbia. Its so dreadfully perfect there.

Im handsome i guess😏

Outside in.