In our moment of victory we must be most vigilant.

I had somewhat of an epiphany while watching “the darker side of charisma”, a biography of how Hitler came into power and how he utilized his charisma to get there. 

Well, it was said he only said what people where thinking and feeling at the time, he said it with strength and anger (the emotion the masses where also feeling). STRENGTH AND VISION, vigor to his words. I fell this would be invaluable to my current business; Real-Estate.

If I where to run my business like he did his political machine I believe I can succeed. 

Youtube videos as a format for giving passionate speeches as why you should sell/buy. Letters as invitations to watch me speak. Instagram posts as PICTURES showing my dynamic personality... I’ll promote MYSELF as being the best and capable. A respectable figure in my industry, a guru-like figure, a god-send.

I should use these mediums to promote myself, not a boring industry.

Everything is NOT fine. Why am I so complacent? I crashed my car, I'm digging into my savings which was at 30,000 now it's down to 6,00-- I mean 4,000 and I don't know where I stand health-wise..Because I'm definetly NOT in shape. 

Complacent

I'm bullshitting

year after year are you going to be feeble Jorge? Half limp dicked lazy fuck?

Getting to the moment and not being able to fuck?

Is that the rest of my life?

.....If there's even much left to it

No, I have to quit this, this bullshitting and I have to overcome this self doubt. There's plenty of things I need to write about but the most important thing I need to do for my self is let this fire grow.

I need to set goals for the summer.

Today I feel sick, maybe from only sleeping 4 hours, maybe the “virus” in my throat. Who knows I feel tired, I got close to nothing done. some noopept, 15mg of A, 1 bang 1 monster, 1 nitro brew coffee. 4 slices of pizza is all I ate.....Maybe that’s why I feel like shiet......

I need more exercise for certain. 

The beauty of being in sales is there are tons of jobs and finding what you are really good at takes time. Everybody says they hate sales because "you are totally replaceable". That is a two way street. If a manager is holding you back feel free to look around. Work on your linkedin. Reach out to old friends. NETWORK. If this is something that a 15 minute meeting can resolve by all means, resolve it. But if you have been subject to this for a year I can't help but think you have exhausted a lot of options. Part of the beauty of sales is the freedom. Never stay in an abusive relationship. Professional or otherwise.