The Road Less Travelled

The guy my partner, we’ve been friends for 12 years. He told me that they were over. My mambo explained the situation down to the tea. She said they got into an argument and the dude told her that he wanted to be with me and she got mad behind that. It’s not something that I’m proud of in my mind I was told that they were over it wasn’t my intention to steal anyone’s boyfriend

I give thanks to the ancestors for showing me people for who they really are. I always question why I go through the shit that I go through, but it’s really spirit showing me that these people aren’t right for me. It took me a year to realize that. I feel relief. Sometimes we wonder why our magic don’t work or isn’t as effective as we want it to be, it’s because there really are spiritual protections placed around us. It’s also good to do divination work beforehand as well.

For the bitch that threatened my unborn child because she can’t get over her ex. Hotfoot is the way to go, so be gone bye hoe

Momma said “you have all the tools over there why you don’t use it” I really don’t know momma lol. I do have a bookshelf full of candles and herbs. School just takes up so much of my time. if it aint school it’s cleaning my house when I have free time. I’m really just drained mentally.

Then I’m stressed about kanzo, because I’m supposed to get initiated in december and I don’t even have the money for that. Now I wanna go hide.

My mom has been using them since I was younger she said that my great aunt taught her how to use them. I’m not afraid of them. She told me to get one and practice with it.

I love the fall. I love the taste of pumpkin flavored coffee. I love to see the leaves fall off the trees. I love the coolness in the morning. Even the sun sets different. I love the fall so much, but why tf am I so depressed. I feel like I’ll never be happy. I can be out doing the most happiest things all day and come home and just get sad. I try to think about things that makes me happy, or those past moments when I was happy, and I sometimes feel like I won’t be in those places anymore. The fall makes me happy. But it’s here and I still feel shitty.

My spiritual mom/mambo told me “your faith is your power”

I love her so much. Before getting a reading done, I use to watch all of her videos on Youtube i followed her on facebook, to make sure Haitian Vodou was something I wanted to dedicate my life to. I did reach out to other mambos before her, but I didn’t feel comfortable at all with them. 

One did me a divination reading that didn’t have anything to do with me, another I think practiced New Orleans Vodou and she did everything different, and  sometimes I questioned if she was even legit, she never talked about kanzo etc

I finally booked  a reading with my current mom, who told me that I’m a chosen one from both sides of my family. She said that I needed to get a Lave Tet  done. I ended  up taking a contract job(I usually take contract jobs when I need  a  large amount of money quick)

I left that contract with the amount of money I needed included travel. We schedule the lave tet to be towards the end of july, but I contacted her earlier and asked if it was possible to go ahead and get it done. She ended up calling me and saying “Oh hey I’m in new york” i said look at spirit

Me and my partner drove 17 hours to New York.I didn’t question anything or have any doubts. I said I’m coming, I’m on the way.

It was one of the longest road trips I’ve taken  in my life, except for driving from MS to West Virginia. The scenery was beautiful. New Jersey was  beautiful. On the way we  pulled over once in TN to rest, when  I woke up I continued to drive and ended up running over something on  the highway  which caused me  to get a flat tire. I debated about driving  on  a  donut, but we decided to just get a hotel in  TN and get a tire the next morning. We jumped up at 8 and headed on out.

We  ended  up making it to New York at 9pm that night, Traffic was horrible. I never seen  anything like it.lol. I ended up parking  my car in a parking garage,I’m sure I spent 200$ on  that  alone.smh. It even got scratched and the guy was rude about it.

I got a chance to eat some New York food. I walked around a littel before everything happened. I’m going to skip over the details of the actual lave tet

But i know that I was told to kanzo in December or January by a particular lwa that I was able to meet And that I have to marry 3 lwas

I’m excited, I haven’t been thinking about how I’m going to pay for it, because that particular lwa said they would take care  of everything, and I don’t doubt spirit. So as of right now, I’m taking care of myself and paying attentioon to my dreams. I think this entry is mainly for myself to go back and reflect on ha!

And my hair still smells good from the lave tet.  I want to just wrap it up and keep the scent it. This happened almost 4 weeks ago

Every since getting a reading done by Mambo, I was told to pay attention to my dreams. I’ve been writing them down and trying to interpret them. I started talking to my partner about them and he was pretty much saying to go by my own interpretation and not read what’s on the internet. I felt some type of way, but I also understood where he was coming from

My mom has been interpreting her dreams for years and she said that they always came true in two weeks time. I know that everyone lives are different. I started to feel a little discouraged when he told me that.

But last night I had a dream about a woman proposing to me. I know that it probably wont exactly mean marriage in the future. I also believe in spirit spouses and I know that they exist. But in my dream I was in a poly relationship and the woman also bought my partner an engagement ring. To me it symbolied a new beginning. I was even in a new city. I don’t know. I’m going to go tend to my altars