Mata uncensored

Leipzig

What are dreams for when we have at least 16 hours of hopeless reality?

what for do we have dreams, when in the end we are all going to end up 3m underground, alone, restless... hopeless...

are dreams our worst enemy? that illusion that we built to have hope in tomorrow? to give tomorrow a porpoise? who is this dream? and why it never comes?

I believe that ones who are happy, have no real dreams. Those who dream with real happiness are cursed to live in the darkness of their own dream. Happiness is an illusion, a cheap advertisement, a marketing trick that grown ups used to tricked us into grow up and pay for they retirement... a white lie.

I have been struggling with a few ideas over the past months... one is to make my life simple, I have been very dependant of my old friends from Berlin. Being honest with the idea that I have friends in Berlin, the truth is that not even those who have family in Thüringen have visited me since I live here... already 5 years

I have no attachments to Berlin, there is no real reason for me to go there, it is a relieve. I made last Saturday 9 years living in Germany, and it is time to move forward. It is time to look back, make peace with my demons and stop trying to make people like me.

I left almost all social media... except Twitter... there is old school fun... with free porn, and original content... 

I just clicked out my mobile phone out if my bedroom.... its new place to be charged is next to my keys.