raconteur

Dont respond. Just don't respond. You can just give no response. Even when it's the good or right thing to do. You can just nahh. It's not your duty to do what's good or right your duty is to survive

Leave. Just get up and leave. Mid sentence mid date mid party mid get up and leave. You don't even need a reason honestly you can just leave. You can leave because the sun is a star you can leave because it's too cold you can leave because you realized you're made of flesh and blood just leave literally any time any where just leave because it's midday or something idk just leave

Reject guilt. You did what you did it is what it is. Reject shame reject embarrassment just heh and move on. It is what it is. Whatever comes of it comes of it. It went how it went and the world kept spinning. Yada yada all that. What next.

Validate your reality. Validate your reality. I told you what validation means. Exactly as it is.

Ask the question. Ask the damn question. Ask it. Chin held high eyes trained spine straight. Ask the question sis. And follow it up with another. As many as you wish. Invent questions to ask if you have none.

Just block her. And him. Just block them rn. How many chances will you give them to show you how disrespect is done? At some point - one of these days- you'll have to realize trading respect for attention is dirty trade, and then I want you to just. BLOCK them. On the spot.

Laugh. You know that "laugh in my face" saying? Try it. 10/10 would reccomend.

Boxing. Jiu Jitsu (THIS> ESPECIALLY THIS) martial arts. Shooting range. Archery.

Tell the truth. Tell the truth. Okay? Those consequences you're so scared of, they're weakening you. Tell the truth and step back, whatever happens happens.

But then time after time as soon as there were other people there it was like I didn't exist anymore and I'm so fucking tired

Is it really so selfish of me to want to feel important for once

Like damn I do everything I can for these people and when I haven't reached out in over a week nobody cares

Nothing changes and they move on without me and then when I finally suck it up and go back because I'm a whore for any sort of attention no matter how fleeting they will act like it's just a silly little thing that I did

I can't stand being alone I can't be alone with myself anymore

What's so wrong about me?

Is it the way I look?

The way I speak?

Or is everything about me the problem?

All I have ever wanted was to be loved the way I love people.

To be chosen the way I choose people

To be prioritised the way I prioritise people

But I guess..I'm too unlovable and boring of a person to be chosen...

I have always hoped the best for people, saw the best in them and loved them the best that I could

But I'm always met with disappointment and feeling left out..

I guess..I am the problem after all

If you tell someone they can't talk to you a certain way or do certain things, those are not boundaries. Boundaries are things we show. If you tell someone "if you do that again I am not going to speak to you" and you stay and continue to speak to them, that's not a boundary. Just words. Words that they now know means absolutely nothing and they can take advantage of.

You show people how to treat you.