standing up my hips and feet r always sore and achy now i just wnna lay down all the time

was excited about how much i was eating today and was gonna chug the rest of my ice cream at the end of the day to top it off.....only to find that all day my ice cream didnt melt at all in the fridge LMFAO. guess haagen dazs rum raisin is just built different damn

ive been having to be sneakier with my nighttime eating because my family is starting to get more annoying about making sure i dont eat too late. they werent half as strict about it when i was skinny so it's like validating in the terms of "welp i am noticably fat now" but also ANNOYING AS FUCK because its been making me so anxious just trying to get a damn snack. i stay up late most the time so i get hungry and its annoying that i have to pretend like im sneaking contraband just to eat

got my first direct comment on my weight by someone in my family (basically translating to "you're letting yourself get fat") and on one hand omg yayyy on the other hand I SHOULD KILL MYSEL

btw today i ammm (adjusts glasses) 20 pounds heavier than my starting goal. i was 114 in march. so that's 20 in 5 months. hooray! 🥳

fat belly keeps resting on the home button on my tablet whenever i lean over slightly and kicking me out of my art program and while it's incredibly annoying it's also really funny. let me draw dude

fighting the demons in my head rn craving fast food so bad but i live w like 5 other ppl so ordering delivery is a public humiliation ritual