Kiyoshi

I dont think I ever actually loved you. I loved who I was back then before everything happened and I thought you were somehow key to getting that back. I let you abandoning me fuck me up for so long that I missed opportunities I’ll never get back. I don’t blame you or anything still my fault for letting it get so out of hand for so long. Idk I have no one to talk to so not sure why I even write this shit not like any of it matters anymore

No one even knows I exist anymore, let alone cares about my existence. It’s like I’ve never left an impression on anyone I’ve met that’s worth anything. I feel so alone in the world just waiting for it to end one day. I wish you didn’t die Jules I miss you more everyday that goes by

And in my dreams I am dirty, broke, beautiful and free 🎶

Sorry I, I haven’t been myself. Somethings got me down, what it is I can not tell. I won’t be satisfied with anything I’ve earned. Fear is just a part of love and one thing I’ve found, is love is what you deserve.

“Im glad you got away, but I’m still stuck out here”