vegas skies

open on desktop or lappy to calmly jam with me

tonight was not really a good night, i ended up crying for about 2 hours nonstop i even filmed myself crying and then watched it afterwards which made me cry even more. wow *sigh* i just can’t believe this is happening, everything is a whack... i have no more words, just wanna be in the time and place where i am full of joy again. Good Lord let me be in that situation again, i beg You... right now, i’m just watching friends to ease off the pain that i’m feeling. hey, i’m trying. i really am...

emotional na naman ako tonight. i was thinking na oo nga noh kumbaga parang unang phase pa lang to na u need to accept that u two are already finished tapos soon dadating sa punto na magkakaroon na sha ng bagong mamahalin panibagong sakit na naman magiging fresh na naman lahat ng sakit na nararamdaman ko balik sa umpisa balik sa pagtanggap ng katotohanan fml

so proud of myself naka apat na litro akong tubig the whole day, i really made sure that i would be able to drink that much and yep felt good here’s to being healthy from now on chz

morning, just wanna say gusto ko na makuha diploma ko sa piyu. saw one of my batchmates that she already got hers, gusto ko na rin huyyy

i barely open my soc med accounts for i think four days now, decided to be away from there for awhile. balik tumblr ulit so that my thoughts can get out and memories will still be stored, wala naman nakakakilala sakin dito personally

my mom and i were talking about how our rooms are so difficult to decorate o baka di lang talaga kami artsy pero no, pangit talaga ayusin. like how the cabinets and the windows aren’t in the right place even the ac. she was saying na pag dito naka pwesto bed mo di matatapatan ng ac o pag dito naman di matatapat sa tv stuff like that. we still lack furniture that will enhance the beauty of our house, sige kako pag nagka work ako yun na lang pag-iipunan ko haha

it’s been a week since i stopped smoking cigar, main reason was my brother bought me an aegis pod hahaha so how is this supposed be a healthier alternative. but i get so easily tempted kapag may nakikita akong kaha sa cr wth stay clean girl u can do it

i was able to get a professional driver’s license yesterday, took us four hours to get one. lucky me, i already got a student permit before lockdown. when i got home, i checked my messenger then there’s this guy who messaged me saying hello, asked him how did he discover my account. i went to his timeline, checked his profile picture, and viola i remember seeing the necklace that he’s wearing on his dp. that was the same necklace worn by the guy sitting in front of me when i was at the LTO, so i mentioned that to him. he was like yeah ako nga yun, he said that he heard my name when the announcer called me so he searched it then yeah messaged me asking if we could be friends lol i guess this guy was too bored that time i mean who wouldn’t be kung nasa LTO ka

i just got home from my tita’s 50th birthday. when the program was about to end, igie (my cousin) and i immediately stood next to the food table so we could be the first in line haha! buuut unfortunately, something happened. when i was walking to our table after getting my food, shet nadapa ako and people were like “ayyy” pero wow ha di natapon pagkain ko. i was so embarrassed to the point that i didn’t eat right away and just pretended that i was busy with my phone bc i thought maybe people were still looking at me. i was tapping my mom whilst she was eating telling her i was so so so shy, it lasted for like five minutes ugh what a night. we (Sulit fam) also did our annual thing, nagbunutan kami ng names for our christmas party. we usually do this at the memorial cemetery bc we’re complete during that time but then pandemic y’all