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Today I was confronted with the word “betrayal” which pretty much always triggers a feeling of uneasiness, hurt, anger, just a feeling of a smelly egg in a hot stuffy room. Time to open the window!

Meeting with a good brother in Christ we talked about cleaning our hearts, cleaning our temples and letting God work on the former hurts and disappointments to get rid of them. Else wise they are like a magnet, keep drawing the same problem, the same hurt in the oh so known same way. The antidote is to deal with it, forgiving and getting rid of it. That’s where God wants to come and help us to heal.

But are we allowing it?

Being close to His presence, becoming more like Him. Not being conformed to the world but to have a renewed mind. Being set free from the earthly standards.

Afterwards I met up with someone else and he told me about how important it is to plan, have control over your life and safety for the future, for your life. Yes, God can work through it. Yes, God can lead you through that way and work like that. Yes, it is right to use our brains and to check the good and bad things.

But by which measures are we measuring it?

Our standards, or God’s? Are we making ourselves to God’s here? Deciding what is right and wrong?

Making long term plans show a pretty good deal of persistence and risk. He told me to take a risk and that’s all when I realized: YES. This is the way I want to go. Being persistent with what God had entrusted me with. Being faithful and persevering with His rhema, His personal word. 

Honestly, I do wonder if it wouldn’t be better to go a “normal” way. A mure safe one. One that is more easy for my surroundings to handle. In the end all comes together to one thing: trusting in God, from where all my safety comes from. #mightytower #mightywarrior #strongshelterandrock #faith

Just recently I have learnt what it means to really be satisfied with myself and how important it is to be in Peace with God first, then be in peace with yourself and then you know how to Keep or be in peace with others.

It made me less dependent on others.

One of my major issues always used to be to give everything to the People I loved and felt needed, valued from.

Being vulnerable was super hard.

Being open, taken a risk or Chance at friendship, trusting others.

It always was harder than expected.

Though that always had been to be left when thy would figure out my flaws or when I start recognizing theirs and both our worlds would collide. Being scared of being seen. Being scared of being hurt.

That’s why the Lord has shown me how to embrace my flaws, accept myself and accept where I am standing right now. It only can get better.

So I praise God for the freedom and that I am not depending anymore on the fact wether there’s someone around me to show me love or anything else.

Just like Justin Bieber sings,

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“If you know it’s from the Lord. Don’t hesitate.”

Again, new movement.

After I had quit my job to go to Kenya I sincerely had no clue what to do now. So I meditated with the Lord on that and as I just went through some possibilities, there it was. That small voice, another word that I never considered before:

Start Up.

Not even knowing what it meant, I researched, chewed on it for a moment and wrote down all I could do, my skills, my offers, my gifts. Putting that thought and paper aside, I left it at the foot of the cross.

Shortly after Kenya I had been asked by the mission team’s leader to assist as a secretary type of thing and to do some stuff via Home Office and before I started I found my sheet again. Immediately I knew: This is it.

You see, Germany is very complicated on forms and regulations and while most people can only shake their head at my irrational decisions, criticising my light headedness and my non-existent worldy qualification.. the more people cannot grasp my life-style, the more I know that it has been the Lord speaking to me.

Isaiah 55:8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. (NIV)

“Blessed be the Lord, my rock, Who trains my hands for war, And my fingers for battle.” . Psalm 144:1 (NASB)

Not long after I moved back it was time to get back into war zone laying all my toys and spiritual play time aside.

As I was enjoying just living life, praising God and going about every day, praising His wonders - I forgot His clear command and my duty.

The Lord reminded me that we are in a raging war and it is not only increasing in many parts of the world but also in the spiritual realm.

My family (natural and spiritual) got attacked big time and it seemed like everyone of them has been taken captive by the enemy. That’s when it shook me again to

“wear the armor of Christ” while “not fighting against flesh and blood” but something we cannot see but it’s not to mess around with. And don’t the enemy dare messing around with us.

So I needed to take my stand in Christ and ask my master for the battle plan. Indeed it is challenging. But the war is raging on. So is the fire which has been put inside of us.

Funny how step by step the Lord has his ways.

Looking for a part time job besides our Start Up (www.services.ministree.de) I knew I should ask at a KebapStore if they’d need another helper.

It took a while for them to reply, yet they employed me to the perfect time and amazing thing is -one of my turkish bosses is a Christian as well ! His life story and how he has gotten to know the Lord is amazing. Truly, our life testifies the most of a loving saviour.

Just when I almost was about to think how deserted this place is of on-fire Christians I got to meet a new brother.

After a while doors opened to talk to more working mates about the Lord or to pray for them. Intercession -war mode: ON.

The road of my life keeps having curves and uncertain phases and it is sad to admit that my faith has not always been certain as well during those times.

Nevertheless I am learning to make moves in faith, because whatever we do not do in faith is sin. So I moved back again to my station close to the country side.

Although I have always seen my siblings in Christ as family and it rarely has been hard for me to set foot in new circumstances, there indeed is a difference about the spiritual raising as well. Coming back to my home church it felt like falling into the arms of childhood and the family closest related to me.

Many changes are coming and I am excited.

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