I wish I could jack off normally

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@miserywithinnaomi
I wish I could jack off normally

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Looking for Salvation
High tfag teen plays his balls out
I was scared of you the other night, so I took you low and slow
Only got up to 0.5
It was real chill, a humble introduction to your way of life
Cuz and Bro took at least 3g , and our setter starting being a bitch
He said he wanted to go to bed at three am while we were still all tripping !!!
We walked to the gas station three separate times and none of them did we end up going inside
We forgot the wallet the first time
We got paranoid the second time
We gave up the third time
We ate the whole loaf of sourdough wit like eight boiled hot dogs (glizzy)
We smoked so much fucking pot
I had a fucking amazing time
And I feel great now too
We watched Joes College Roadtrip and
Rick and Morty
I took another swig
I took another drag
Id ghost it
I hit the wood hard as hell
Im slumped, bro
Im cooked, for real
Ay where Jacob at , Yo Jacob, Wake up Jacob
We wanna hit the vapeeeeeeeeee
Im happy
So happy
ay man fosho
ay man ,
fosho
Happy Graduation Cousin Man
06/04/2026

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The Day After our Mushroom trip
I didnt take as much as, everyone else
I saved myself some for later . Tehee
I stole this cigarette from his pack,while my cuzz slept on the floor
In relation to my last post I say UGHHHHHHHHHHHHH i dk bruhhhh
when its your cousin who you see as kind of a younger brother even tho hes six months older
Fucking idiot
I just want you to understand what Im trying to tell you about . Ive seen both sides of the war you are fighting in . Please listen
You are almost out of time
If a guy apologizes for being a dumb ass dick do you forgive him if he genuinely is just dumb as rocks ? This is a question I have debated for a long time
Im drunk as I write this, Can you tell?
Promise no edits
My cousins friend gave me his burnt geek bar
But I havenât had a vape in awhile so it tastes fine to me, and he had another at home
I smoked off my cart all day hanging out with them, We were trying to buy shrooms
My cousin said I hit my cart like itâs my vape
I like that shit
My cousins friend said he has the same battery as me,
I like that shit
Its not that deep
Bur I feel like every other teenager now. Geek bar in hand, drunk off 99 peaches, Kodo pro in the other
Why does the brand matter? Strip it all away and it never did. Weâre just teenagers getting high.
Tale as old as time
I smoke the same brand
I want to be like every other teenager
I was born in plastic like you guys
I was born gasping for air
I was born waiting for relief
I want to be like you
I wondered, could I be you? Nylon basketball shorts, rubber sneakers, polyester hoodie
I know I am full of richness beyond your comprehension, but I want to get comfortable in your imitation of richness
Let me wriggle in it, feel the fibers wrap around my hips and breasts and make me anew. Your royalty. King of the basketball court. I am just like you.
Buzz cut with chunky layers. Acne craters and inflammation. Chapped lips. Oily hair. Dry ends. Wrists that sharpen your entire physique.
Itâs cold and Iâm at a school in a place hours away from home. Im walking and eating a sweet sandwich wrapped in plastic.
Ever heard of red bean paste? I think about it when I eat a peanut butter jelly
your playing basketball with your guy friends. Im not invited but Im here anyways. I dont play very well but Im kind of funny . You feel bad
You are so mean to me
Why do I want to be just like you?
The right half of my upper body will always crave to be in your shape
But my body would look grotesque if I let it
Love letter to my Ex Sean
Im drunk as i write this, Can you tell?
Im writing this so I dont end up texting him
Im so sorry I broke up with you the day after your birthday, over the phone at that
I knew it was the wrong time, But I felt it was worse to drag you along days after waiting for the right time
I hope you have someone else now. You are so god damn sweet. You deserve someone to love you so tenderly. Im so sorry
Anyways, I wanted to tell you every single reason why we bromke up in that very moment but when you said you asked me to never contact you again it hurt and I got reactive because I had so much to tell you, and now I couldnât. But I do understand.
You were so sweet. In every way.
But you werenât very smart. I saw so much of myself in you, and Ive met a handful of people like you, but I was maybe 13 back then .
You didnt have any stability. I need that in a partner. But I was eager to establish myself as independent, I told myself I wouldnât waste my time. But three months isnât that much time, I regret that I was so quick to yank away. There was so much I didnât get to learn about you. you were going through so much and all of it was familiar to
me
I wanted to help you but I donât think you were ready to confront some things. It made me worried, because I was only barely ready to confront those same things in my own life.
I cant go back to that time in my life . When I couldnât even glance at these huge things ravaging my mind.
But you were still in the middle of seeing everything that was unfair to you. Your dad was so fucking weird. Im so sorry. I know he has done things you donât want to talk about
Mine did too, and nobody wanted to talk about it
So when you can barely talk about it, even when heâs weird To Me;
I lost my sense of safety with you Sean
I got scared
But I shouldâve told you
When your friend is so uncomfortable to be around, When she touched on you even when I tried to stare her down, to establish myself as yours, surrounded by your friends for the very first time
I ask myself every day If I should have just stood up and chewed her out but I just didnât know if that was the kind of friendship you guys had
You said, after she left, that you didnât like her much either
So why did you invite her that day ?
I donât blame you for being scared, I donât blame you for brushing it off,
But why did you have to make excuses for her , to me, when I brought it up? When we were all alone?
I thought we were in this together?
Maybe I lost some faith in you then. I wanted to be by your side but that, and this, time in my life I just am not a broad protector
I try, but I canât guard you. Im so sorry. I needed you to have a sense of strength about yourself. But you were only beginning to develop that. I should have given you grace
But I think my nature reacted, and I was scared . If I stood up for you, would you for me ? Could you even if you wanted to? Not out of strength, but courage?
Im so sorry
.
You were such an amazing partenr. My God I was in love with you. Was is the wrong word but I wonât use any other out of respect and fear. But you were immature, and too much of my life had. been dedicated to immaturity .

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i graduated today
Right now as I am typing this I Am Drunk
Can you tell? Let me know
Today I saw my cousin and his girlfriend
Now ex
But we are all still friends
Because thats the mature thing to do
We shared a cigarette at the park. Two actually
We smoke that shit down to the filter
I graduated a week or so earlier then him, despite being a few months younger
We joke
I unintentionally brag about my grades, he mentions the way his fail, I brag more,
somewhat intentionally
Im proud of myself, and I miss him
Dumb ass bitch
He gets off probation in three days,
He says he wants to smoke up with me, but before he said heâd probably only smoke again with his girl
I get it
Where did you go?
We shared a cigarette.Or two. And he explained his issues and I tried to explain them back to him. I have that habit but Im not a therapist. I just like the idea of helping someone profoundly. I hope to God it hits right.
By the second he said he wanted to get into a new relationship, but nothing serious
I said I think you need to spend some time alone with your thoughts TRULY BRUH
i dont know if it truly hit
He left me two of his cigarettes before he left, and his JBL speaker he doesnât use anymore
Its been three months since we talked,
I told him, I love you cuzzo
You always have somewhere with me
I took a shot six minutes before he left
He said , âWhat a gangsterâ, or something akin
But took it back when I reached for a drink
âI never needed a chaser. Not for fireball, or pink Whitney, not for nothing.â
He isnât bragging very strongly but he is. I find myself envious of that.
The separation between my pride in my education and his pride in each substance-related or manhood forming esk experience he has had, isnât nearly as far apart as anyone might think
I wish I didnât need a chaser after a shot. I wish I could deny my human reaction when convenient or cool and I donât say that sarcastically. People donât see things as cool for nothing . But I have a hunch he wishes he had my grades. We learn from each other. We become each other until we are entirely anew. Thats the goal at least
My cousin has always been cool to me. He has also always been quite dumb to me. I think those two go hand in hand. He is quite tender hearted down to his true character, defying what he tells even himself
I wish I could be in his brain for a few days or hours or whatever. Just understanding him .
Complicated ass boys turning into complicated dumbass men
I think teenage boys and teenage girls of every variety have wayyy more in common then they think . Everybody is so prissy
My cousin didnt know what the word meant
Is it so wrong to want to do things without wasting the energy I could be using to do other things?
i donât know how to do anything right
I isolated when I was 13 and it worked like a charm
But ive seen what the world has to offer . I dont want to sit alone anymore
my own mother canât stand my face sometimes I see it in hers . disgust
But I believe her when she says she loves me, she wants me to see what the world has to offer
We got in a fight because I wanted her to ask me what Was wrong , and instead she wanted to go out and have a good day together. Theres nothing wrong with that is there?
I didnt go on the school trip I wanted to go on
I just canât have good days when something is so wrong as it is . I just wanted her to ask what was wrong
Im terrified . Im about to graduate . I cant write . I cant draw . I cant make anything worth anything
Ive never been good at school . But I was the last three years. I was so good. Now its almost over
about 15 years of misery in a place I screamed to stay away from and now its almost over right when I got good . Thats okay
Im going to go to college
Im so ready, now Rush forward, Flood my senses, Im getting impatient
The waiting is the real fear. I know when I meet this new part of my life, of me, that I will meet it horns first just as it will face me the same way. But the waiting. Im just waiting. Im sitting here waiting. Im laying here waiting. Im two months away from turning 18. Im still 13 years old. Today I felt like I was 5
Mom scoffed at me and I broke down because she always scoffs at the things I do or donât do, the things I say or donât say, she does it without even realizing it. I point it out and she says she doesnât even notice it. Nobody has supposedly never noticed the ways they split me like twine
I cry over spilt milk because why would you spill it on purpose?
Well it wasnât on purpose. just didnât care if it happened
whats the difference anymore
Im so scared to graduate
I want to be 5 years old again
I donât care what I miss out on if you promise Itâll always stay the same ,
And I would rather die then stay the same ,
So maybe the answer has been in front of us all along
Please promise me you wonât forget who I was
mylife is a fucking nightmare
being s writer who orobaly had adhd sucks because I lowk hate doing the thing that keeps me alive
My bitch ass faggot ass cousin
You retard I miss u bruh
I cant be close to someone I donât respect
You used to want to be someone who protected people , learning new stuff and standing up for people who didnât .
When did you stop caring about people and things you couldnât understand?
When did effort die for you?
I know its been a hard life
Thats why it hurts to see you become so ignorant and unwilling to change , how are we supposed to change these things from our past with closed minds ?
Hereâs to the future cuzzo

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Within the next 6 or so days Dr Keke is supposed to send his alien troops to like take over the world I think but its cool jus be prepared n shit
For Meatball (& HB).
As a yougun
I was not always kind to my animal companions
I tried to be, At times I thought I was
Tough love
Tough love doesnât work on such gentle creatures
I hadnât yet learned that for myself
Nobody learns it until its too late
When I turned 14 all my guilt hit me in one massive wave
Guilty of spreading my pain for the sake of sharing it
Despite the pain it may incur
Sharing it violently was always how it was done
When I was 5 my dog had an accident on the floor and my mom rubbed her entire body in the spot , so violent
My mother has always loved animals
My mother has always loved me
The second half of my family considered me a mongrel
When I was 4 Iâd run on all fours, and hiss and scratch and pounce
I said Iâd run away and become a wild cat
When I was 12 my cousin showed me a video of a woman sexually assaulting a cat
But that wasnât the first time someone had showed me something like that
I stopped pretending to be a wild cat because I was afraid of getting cat scratch disease
I wanted to be wild and free but it isnât spared from the same pain Iâd feel as an everyday human being
When I was 15 I met a cat named meatball, and she was so so so small
As small as I felt, and she was so scared and in so much pain
She has back issues, you see
Sheâs the most beautiful thing Ive ever seen, and my guilt hits me in one massive wave
When I was 14 I tried to waterboard myself to death
poorly
, It obviously didnât work
Im glad I didnât try worse in that string of halfway attempts before I met meatball
I love her so much
I cant imagine it. Hurting something like her
Hurting something like me back then
I sing to her and massage her back carefully when it starts to bother her,
Youâre my angel, Youâre my guardian angel
Sheâs still very skittish from whatever happened to her when she was smaller . I wish I could take her pain away. Sheâs gotten a lot better over the years though
Every so often she curls up beside me, she drools when she purrs too long , I feel so blessed
Sheâs only one small portion of my blessings
And yet she alone brings me to tears
I could drink from them if I thought of everything at once
When I was 5 I tried to train my dog to do shows so we could get rich and run away together
But she couldnât do any tricks, and I was so angry, so I shoved her down and screamed how worthless she was and I cried and cried and cried
Then I saw that in her eyes. I carried her inside. We were always just alone. I laid her on the couch and cried on the floor beside her. I said I was so sorry. I begged her to forgive me .
When I was 15 she got very sick very fast. I felt the need to spend a day with her, I gave her a bath and she curled up on the pullout couch and stayed the night and we hung out for the first time in awhile, since she lived with my grandma at that point
I went the school the next day, and she died in last period .
Honeybear
I wrote you a poem when I was in elementary school
You were everything you ever needed to be and so much more.
Im so sorry I wasnât as good as I should have been. When I scraped my knee and you licked it clean I asked mom why you did gross stuff like that, and she said it was because you wanted to heal me
And I started crying because I was so honored, and so grateful, and undeserving
Because I loved you so much and couldnât ever show you how much in the situation we were in
Iâm glad you got a good last part of your life. Relaxing and fun. I wish I saw you more. I felt guilty
You were like a grandma to me, in a weird way . Something about you was so wise. You always had a way of telling me things with your eyes. Thats why I get so confused when I remember the love in them, and the confusion, and the fear we caused . That I caused.
But you were so loving. So forgiving. I will honor you. Maybe a tattoo. I dont know, let me know what you think.
Meatball
I wrote you a poem now, drunk and about to graduate
Iâm already afraid to lose you because I already donât deserve you
Nobody deserves you
Humans can be so cruel . I wish I could buy you a whole house just for you with endless food and fun so you wonât ever get bored
And you wonât ever get hurt
By a stupid angry child
who doesnât really know what it means to be wild and free
But from the day I met you I knew, everything would be all about you
I wanted everything to be all about you
You teach me how to slow down, and be gentle to myself, and to listen even when I canât understand what exactly youâre saying
Youâre here, now, not somewhere else, not sometime else
And I swear to you and your sister , ever more forgiving and kind she is, despite how snappy I can be when she gets on my nerves
I will never let anyone hurt you
I will never let you go hungry, or cold, or miserable
No one will ever exploit you. No one will ever exploit us
I love you
Thank you for loving me. Im human, so I donât deserve it. But you understand how complicated we can be. I promise a better future for us.
It took me years to truly see the world from your perspective