You don't get it.
You donβt. It isnβt a game sheβs playing. She isnβt manipulating, fishing for compliments, or trying to trap you. Despite what the world has taught you, she has a rare, direct honesty in the way she interacts and a pure heart that most canβt recognize, let alone believe. Her insecurity only surfaces when she is trying to let someone in, donβt you understand? She feels so deeplyβ¦ it has cost her greatly in her lifetime. It is easier, safer, and much more rational to default to doubtβ¦ it hurts less than trust. She wonβt allow herself to believe most anything unless it is explicitly said as well as shownβ¦ and often repeated. Years of emotional neglect does that to a person. It doesnβt make her broken, but it does make her different. Her doubt isnβt about you. When you pull away, it will almost always be interpreted as rejection. Itβs ok if you donβt want the responsibility, believe me, the woman understands completely, and while she doesnβt blame you, she also knows sheβs worth it. The little girl though? It simply makes her sad, because she peeks out of hiding so seldom, and shows glimpses of her soul to so few. Like most treasures worth owning, she is obscured from casual sight; she requires being earnestly sought. ~dd
