You don't get it.
You donât. It isnât a game sheâs playing. She isnât manipulating, fishing for compliments, or trying to trap you. Despite what the world has taught you, she has a rare, direct honesty in the way she interacts and a pure heart that most canât recognize, let alone believe. Her insecurity only surfaces when she is trying to let someone in, donât you understand? She feels so deeplyâĻ it has cost her greatly in her lifetime. It is easier, safer, and much more rational to default to doubtâĻ it hurts less than trust. She wonât allow herself to believe most anything unless it is explicitly said as well as shownâĻ and often repeated. Years of emotional neglect does that to a person. It doesnât make her broken, but it does make her different. Her doubt isnât about you. When you pull away, it will almost always be interpreted as rejection. Itâs ok if you donât want the responsibility, believe me, the woman understands completely, and while she doesnât blame you, she also knows sheâs worth it. The little girl though? It simply makes her sad, because she peeks out of hiding so seldom, and shows glimpses of her soul to so few. Like most treasures worth owning, she is obscured from casual sight; she requires being earnestly sought. ~dd
