iโll definitely check out the list and see if anything catches my eye, i started writing a full like fic with chapters but im thinking to hold on that and just try a couple one shots, maybe thatโs my problem rnโฆ
OKAY LONG READ! (also let me know if something doesnโt make sense because i was speech to texting this lol)
as for you opinion, ok so i was talking to this guy back in june of last year and in august he asked me out. we were together until like the end of january. the thing is i canโt tell if maybe i was being too pushy and actually played a big part in our breakup and my friends are just blindsided by the fact that im their friend or if heโs actually an asshole.
so basically the last time i had seen him was like the weekend before christmas, and everything was fine. we had dinner with his parents we exchanged gifts, watched christmas movies, he even got us matching pjs and everything. but around christmas he just like kinda stop texting me. and he was like going through things so I was understanding, but I made it apparent that I just needed him to communicate to me that he wasnโt gonna be very present. so we have a conversation and sing to it then continue to hours and hours of the day without texting me. Even when he was active on social media. Then I brought it up again. He just kept saying itโs because he was going to things and his way coping was kind of being by himself and I told him that I understood that but heโs not by himself anymore. When you have a partner, youโre supposed to open up to them and work through things with them and he agreed and he agreed. Then things were fine for a bit. but then he was supposed to come to a party with me and he was also supposed to meet my mom that night and he cancelled both of those. he said it was because of the weather which I understood so then I was like oh just call me at New Yearโs so at least we can like kind of open the New year together. And then at midnight or called him and he didnโt answer and he was like Iโm calling my grandmother because it was her birthday and I was like OK and then he never called me. And I just felt stupid because I was sitting around waiting for him to call me all my friends were like oh did he call you and I was like no, and they just kinda looked at me with pity.
Anyway fast forward a bit, and I had been trying to like get together because we hadnโt seen each other since before Christmas and he just wasnโt having it so I called him and I was basically like I feel like a dog begging for your attention and he was like oh Iโm sorry like I donโt think I can give you what you need right now and I was like so you wanna break up and he was like I just want what you want and I was like I want to work on us and stay together and so he agreed to that. but then a couple weeks later he still not answering me throughout the day and like there was a couple times where he would not answer me for like days like we wouldnโt talk for like a couple days.
I just called him and was like we need to talk about this and figure out a plan or something and in that call he decided didnโt wanna be with me anymore.
so obviously, I was upset, but we had agreed that it was kind of like a mutual ending like we were gonna end things on good terms, but then as soon as I went to go and add him from like my close friends, he already unfollowed me and unfollowed him and added me on everything. and when I mean, everything I mean like everything discord Spotify Roblox. like there was not a single app he didnโt add me. then I saw his TikTok. He was posting like so happy Iโm out of my loverboy era, My prime is finally back, why I have one when you can have 10โฆ
and I just wanna know like do you think that me asking for him to be open with his communication and more present with me was like asking too much knowing that he was going through something and knowing that his way of coping was the kind of block people off?
Should I have left earlier? I donโt know Iโve been having this internal battle about this whole situation, and all my friends call him evil, but I feel like heโs just unhealed.
but I feel like if I continue to think that heโs just unhealed and that he just needs to work on himself then Iโm not gonna move on and Iโm gonna continue to hope he comes back to me which would suck if he actually is just evil. ๏ฟผ
ANYWAYYYYโฆ iโm honestly fully ready to try and move on but there is something lingering saying i should reach out or wait because part of me thinks heโs a good guy still.
fic wise, i always stay smart small. but def look at stayblr. I have our invite link in my pinned if your not in the community.
i wasnt mad until the "why have one when you can have 10" comment.
i, personally, am a one chance person. So the fact you gave him MULTIPLE opportunities to work on your relationship and he did jack shit means, to me, he didn't care. If i talk to you about something wrong once and you don't fix it and i have to being it up again, immediately your on my shit list, but i could just be a bitch๐คทโโ๏ธ
sounds like he thought he wanted a relationship and now he wants to be a manwhore. You weren't in the wrong. you let him know what you wanted from the relationship, he ignored it and only really make got what he wanted out of it?
