Flora

☁️ you're an active ed/thinspo blog in september '19

☁️ you're an adult or almost an adult

☁️ you're between 5'3" and 5'7"

☁️ you're from europe

☁️ you're still close to your starting weight

☁️ you struggle with constant binging

☁️ you're over 130lbs

☁️ you're part of the LGBT community

☁️ you're against meanspo & fatshaming

I really need to follow more blogs!

For My Health

To have better skin

So I don’t sweat profusely

So I can walk up a flight of stairs and not feel out of breath

So my back won’t hurt

So my knee won’t hurt 

So my doctor will never say, “you really need to lose some weight” to me ever again

So I don’t have to worry about arthritis or other illnesses that accompany obesity

For Vanity

To feel better about myself

To look good in tight clothes

To be able to wear shorts in the summer

To be able to go into any store, and buy the clothes I like, not just the ones that fit

To not feel awkward about going clothes shopping or shoe shopping

To be able to order clothes from a catalogue without worrying if they will fit

To be able to wear something that doesn’t say PLUS on it

So my pants won’t wear out between my legs while the rest of them are still in good shape

So I can look in the mirror from the neck down and like what I see

So I can wear tight jeans

I want to wear underwear that looks sexy

So I can show off my legs

So I can go into public and not feel like people are judging me

So I can wear tops without worrying about the dents from my bra showing trough

So that my boobs stick out more than my stomach – not the other way around

For a Better Quality of Life

To be able to use a public toilets comfortably

I want to be able to read the scale by just looking down, straight down

So I don’t get those indents on my thighs from the arms of the chair I’m sitting in

So I can cross my legs

So I can get up from the floor in one smooth move and not a grab and hold on to something move

So I can sit on a bar stool and I’m actually sitting ON it, not on it and around it too

So a regular towel goes all the way around me 

So my socks pull all the way up

So I can hug my knees to my chest again, and it’s comfortable

So I can fit into the cinema/stadium/airplane seats comfortably

So I can bend over comfortably to tie my shoes

For My Self-esteem

So I can go swimming without being self-conscious

So I don’t worry about chairs breaking

So I don’t have to ask for the additional seat belt on an airplane

So I can dance without being self-conscious

So I can go on rides at amusement parks again and not have to experience the embarrassment of having to get off because I don’t fit

So I don’t have to worry about the maximum weight before I using things

So I don’t feel awkward when people start talking about losing weight

So no one can ever call me “a big girl” ever again

So I’m not embarrassed to have my picture taken

So I can say my weight out loud

♡ingredients♡

- 2 tsp of groundnut oil (80 calories)

- 1 small onion (i chose yellow) (29 calories)

- 2 medium sticks of celery (12 calories)

- 2 medium (or ~500g) sweet potatos (86 calories/100g - 430 calories)

- 1 grated piece of ginger (thumb-sized) (2-6 calories depending on the amount you use)

- 1 chilli (i used scotch bonnet) (18 calories)

- 2 garlic cloves (9 calories)

- 2 plum tomatoes (22 calories) (6 calories if you decide to use cherry tomatoes)

- 1 litre of vegetable stock (21 calories)

- 2 tbsp of smooth nut butter (i used peanut butter) (188 calories)

♡instructions♡

- Begin to heat and oil a large pan. While heating, dice onion, celery, and sweet potatoes. Once heated, add the diced items and cook until the onion and celery have slightly softened (or about 10 minutes).

- Seed and chop your chilli, slice your garlic. Add these and your grated ginger to the pan and cook for roughly another 2 minutes.

- Add the vegetable stock and diced tomatoes; bring the mixture to a boil and let simmer for about 20 minutes.

- season (to taste) and stir in peanut butter. Put into a blender or food processor (if you want it chunky you can hand mash it or just blend slightly)

- serve with toppings, basil, coriander, or leave it as is! :)

♡information♡

This is meant to make 4 servings, each serving is roughly 197.25 calories (if you eat the whole thing it’s 789 calories)

It’s not 50 calories, but it’s packed with lots of nutrition and things to help with your immune system. things can be mixed up/taken out/added in, just adjust the calories accordingly!

your condom breaks

you feel a lump on your breast

your friends are ignoring you

you’re stranded on an island 

you got rejected by a crush

you get into a car accident

you got stung by a bee/wasp

you got fired from your job

you’re in an earthquake

your tattoo gets infected

your house is on fire

you’re lost in the woods

you get arrested abroad

you get robbed

your partner cheated on you

you’re on a ship that’s sinking

you fall into ice

you’re stuck in an elevator

you hit a deer with your car

you have food poisoning

your pet passed away

you fall off of a horse

you or your friend has alcohol poisoning

you have toxic shock syndrome

If you did an hour of walking, you deserve to eat.

If you went to the gym today, you deserve to eat.

If you’ve been fasting all day, you deserve to eat.

If you went to class/work, you deserve to eat.

If you already ate today, you deserve to eat.

If you just binged, you deserve to eat.

If you’ve spent the day in bed, you deserve to eat.

Even if you feel like a failure, you deserve to eat.

You are a human being.

E V E R Y M O T I V A T I O N I S G O O D. S T A Y S T R O N G

✨I lost 10 lbs in 6 days✨

My goal weights seem closer and closer each day~

Reblog to lose 10 lbs as well!

tokyo

“life is a word that you sometimes cannot say, and ash is the thing that someday we all should be”

“why do love and hate sound just the same to me?”

seoul

“why do you sound like ‘soul’? what kind of soul do you have?”

“buses with changing landscapes even when i’m sitting still”

“and the kids all grown up, and me who’s a little late”

moonchild

“we’re born to be sad sad sad sad, suffer to be glad glad glad glad”

“it’s okay to shed the tears, but don’t you tear yourself”

“when you say you want to die, strive to live as much as you want to die” (translations differ for this line but i like this one the best)

“even thinking that you shouldn’t think, that in itself is a thought you know”

“the moment you speak of freedom, you lose it, you know. do you know?”

“surely someone else will take comfort from looking at your thorns”

badbye

“kill me softly”

uhgood 어긋

(the whole song tbh)

“At times I’m disappointed with myself

Honestly, I trample myself

“Do you only amount to this?”

“You need to do so much better”

“You need to be so much cooler”

“If you’re going to be defeated, might as well die”

“You have to win, you, you, you”

“Falling short is such a painful thing

If you don’t go through it then you can’t know it

My ideals and reality, so very far apart

But still, by crossing the bridge

I want to reach you

The real you

The real me”

“You will get covered by rain at times in this life

Yeah you might get caught in rain

It might keep raining for days

It could even rain in the desert

But I can’t give up on the me that you know

I can’t let go of the me that you know”

everythingoes

“Just like the night leaves and the morning comes

The spring leaves and summer comes, but

Just like the flower wilts and the fruit grows ripe

Everything needs to go through pain”

“Everyday I pray (everyday I pray)

That I may become a slightly better adult

And everyday I stay (everyday I stay)

Since both people and pain all die one day”

forever rain

“i wish it would rain all day, ‘cause i’d like someone to cry for me”

Being jealous of friends or people who have been severely underweight/ hospitalized

Hundreds of awkward angle body checking photos

Looking at the size of your legs/body in every mirror, reflection, shop window

Being disgusted at watching people eat

Comparing people’s body size and weight to yours before noticing anything else about them

Being obsessed with cooking/dieting/food programmes

The pain of hitting your hip bone on a table

Hating yourself for judging anyone who is healthy or overweight

Being proud of your lowest weight once recovered/weight restored

Eye rolls when anyone without an ED discusses their new diet/weight loss

Eating every tiny bit of a specific calorie portioned food because damn if you’ve counted those calories you are gonna enjoy them

Feeling embarrassed for eating ‘unhealthy’ foods because people assume you eat nothing/survive on lettuce

‘Wow you’re actually eating’ kill me

Not enjoying excercise or wanting to work out

Alternating between being scared of all food and wanting to consume everything in sight

Really horrific awful bad breath (like seriously bad)

One day you’re too scared to eat a tomato the next you eat chocolate without worrying about it

Looking in the mirror after eating and feeling like you gained 20lbs

Im scared to eat because I don’t want to trigger a binge

But