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Welcome. You may call me KHIMERA. This space serves as a repository for comics and illustrations from the perspective of a Black system. I post when I feel like it. Expect long periods of inactivity.

While I acknowledge how DID is described in a psychiatric context, philosophically, I do not see myself as composed of "parts" and avoid language which implies this. I am an entity which functions through the collective effort of multiple distinct animals. (Perhaps my name makes sense now?) For the sake of privacy, a collective persona is utilized, but obviously behind the scenes everyone posts, answers questions, and reads comments so please be thoughtful before you say something that could be perceived as over familiar or rude.

NOTE: I AM NOT A UNIVERSAL AUTHORITY. That being said, I invite sincere curiosity about the intersection of Blackness with complex dissociation or anything else I talk about on here. Feel free to send in asks!

I want to leave this open for other Black systems to reply to cause this calls for many perspectives beyond my own limited one. In my opinion though, the answer to a question like this is the same regardless of what community we're talking about. I just need people to get a lot more anti-racist tbh. Hearing us out is one thing, but it's admittedly easy to pass our words along and feel good for a bit...meanwhile, what's actually getting done to change our circumstances for the better? The hard work comes when you start trying to materially apply what we talk about to your own life ESPECIALLY in ways that are uncomfortable and/or require effort on your part.

There may not be a lot of information on Blackness and DID specifically out there, but there sure is a ton about the intersection of Blackness and mental illness in general! Do your own research so you can take some of the burden off us to catch you up on the basics! A lot of what I said in my comic is information that already exists in some form.

Think of the spaces you currently occupy and be honest: Do they lack melanin? Could you point out even a single Black woman? My sisters are often canaries in a coal mine for this type of thing, so if they aren't invited to the function, you need to ask yourself if it's a space that deserves to exist, or at least one you should feel comfortable existing in! If everyone would stop picking their comfort and fun over our absence, then it would encourage the growth of communities that actually welcome us.

One of my members actually answered this on another blog!! Answer still holds true.

Combining these two cause I feel like they're similar enough.

I feel shy answering questions like this, because while I wouldn't call my journey easy, I have a feeling it was very unremarkable compared to others. So, I'm only answering in case anyone is also self-conscious about their discovery not having much fanfare. This got a liiitle long so putting it under a cut!

Thank you for asking! I think...that's a good rule, it's scary over there lmao.

That being said, I wanted to address something I've been noticing about feedback to the comic from the nonblack audience of color, because I feel like it could be a teachable moment. I figured that a lot of you would be able to relate to much of what I shared! I even mention that directly, because our experiences DO often overlap a lot as racial minorities! But to be 100% clear the comic I made was about being BLACK and if you are not Black you have to make peace with not having the full picture and try to quell the urge to act as if you "get it". It is a uniquely isolating experience to be the bottom rung within the hierarchy of Whiteness, because you are the rung that all others measure their proximity to safety against. This is why antiblackness is a world-wide phenomenon, as long as everyone agrees to keep someone at the bottom, then no matter where they are on the ladder, they will always have a head to walk on.