million-dollar-ransum

Can you believe I still went to New Zealand and I tried to get my man back and he wasn’t having it. But we played pretend for like a week. I cried in front of him so many times. Pretty embarrassing. He was persistent on me not going away and staying his friend. I didn’t speak to him for about a month. Then became his friend again after he said he wants to restart everything and fall in love again.. it all hurt pretty bad. It’s all pretty pathetic. I don’t feel pretty. I don’t feel beautiful I feel very dumb despite trying to talk to other people and other people gassing me up as usual I suppose I am very hot and beautiful I just don’t feel it after that relationship and all that prior rejection. I am not in love with him anymore though. The pain was excruciating, the embarrassment was my humiliation ritual I am ready to be famous like HELLO DAMN BITCH FUCK OK ALREADYYY

Broke my heart and I don’t know what I did.

So crazy how the guy I loved asked me to be his girlfriend and I don’t even care that it’s long distance…he just said he woke up one day ready to stop playing and love me? I hope he’s not settling….