Um wtf

I mostly use this to read stuff but i'm feeling down in the dumps so here we go.

I hate you, i really genuinely do. We've been "friends" for years, you should know you were important to me and I constantly feel replaced and left behind. I was there when you needed me, didn't matter what i was going through. A little over a year ago I was in severe distress, getting pumped full of medication to sedate me further, under the constant threat of being thrown into the psych ward again not even 2 full months after getting out and constantly drinking cause i could not cope; regardless i was there when you needed. Every single fucking day. Every time you texted or called.

So you decided everything else is important and i can sit on the back burner for (whatever's holy to you atp) knows how long, because you could.

I hate you cause I miss you. Scratch that, I hate the person I used to know cause, now that I desperately need help but you have someone you can talk to, you replaced me. Didn't even just leave me, replaced. Said you need a break cause I had too many problems so you "felt you couldn't tell me the stuff you're going through" as if that ever stopped you before. Then we started "talking" again cause i accidentally sent a text, how's that going? Nothing. Dead. Actually got half a conversation once.

"It's not you, it's me" is applicable in this case. Cause it wasn't me, it was you. Now that I need help and I'm desperately seeking it, you tossed me to the side and this new person is the center of your world. I don't give a damn about being the center of anyone's universe, but idk it kinda feels unfair that, now that you no longer need me to talk to about your problems, i am no longer relevant in any sense; people exist in your world, there just isn't a place for me anymore.

Who loved you when you were a "nobody", cause they all love you now that you are a "somebody".

it’s also an orange flag.

and a yellow flag. and a green, a blue and a purple one.

you’re gay.

happy pride month.

Taeil: Clingy, might love bomb you but is overall sweet.

Johnny: Oh dear god, hard to read, you have no idea how he feels about you while simultaneously knowing he feels something but you have no idea what. Most likely obsessed with big butts.

Taeyong: Genuinely the sweetest boy in the world, kind, considerate just a bit wishy washy but always returns to you.

Yuta: Possibly the devil, sex addiction, lies for no damn reason. Will drive you absolutely crazy.but really good in bed.

Kun: Rich, successful, can probably go multiple rounds, either talks a lot or not at all it depends but it's always surface level, loves cats, every Capricorn man I've known has had a least one cat I feel like there's something to that.

Doyoung: He does not act like a single Aquarius I have met. Not even the Aquariuses in NCT. He has strong Capricorn energy though.

Ten: Sweet but a little bit of a hoe, kinda ran through.

Jaehyun: Runs from commitment doesn't even know what that is, will text you at random times when he's nearby and really misses the way your mouth feels. Even if you're in the middle of Walmart with your family. But he's hot so you deal with it.

Winwin: Secretive, you have no idea where he is or what he's doing. You don't know if he's ever told you the truth. Secretively a little freaky. He has to be. I have not met a single Scorpio man that doesn't have a ridiculous sex drive or perversions.

Jungwoo: Honestly just a sweet precious boy, who's wide eyed and thankful and the sweetest thing in the world.

Mark: Playful, kind, loyal, talks a lot and might unknowingly overshare.

Xiaojun: A little bit dramatic, will scold you for dressing improperly for the weather. Handsy and gives deep strong eye contact.

Hendery: Over the top, kinda loud, random, literally the best person in the entire world, a little feral, will eat food out of your mouth.

Renjun: Renjun is perfect so any experience with an Aries doesn't apply to him. I wouldn't disrespect him like that.

Jeno: Very calm, chill, encouraging,sweet, quiet but a great listener, and just goes along with whatever nonsense you're up to.

Haechan: Has the most audacity, will say extremely specific things that leaves you speechless and questioning your character. Honestly might have you afraid to have another human interaction.

Jaemin: Kind, considerate, caring, affectionate, so so touchy, romantic, forehead kisses at random times. Literal sunshine.

Yangyang: Energetic, disappears every five minutes, shopping addiction, easily distracted, will follow a cat around for hours.

Chenle: Hilarious, loud, so out of pocket and great to be around, you never know what to expect him to say or do.

Hello guys.. I want to recommend my favorite fanfics although you've probably read many of them already!

oneshots:

Gasoline | Ice Queen | Bellicose | Guys My Age | I Loved You | Begin | Hotblood |Baekismet | For Eternity | Quit Your Life | Young | Honey | Bloodstream | Moulin Rouge Sous le Ciel Bleu | Café au Lait | worlds apart | neon moon | Lip Ring | Red | Murder to the mind | On the Way | Love Again | My Lady | White Noise | Four Stars Out Of Five | sweet | Roses | Glances | Sweet Dreams | Behave | car je t'aime | transcendental | meant to belong | candy stars | Incubus: Coming of Age | Silver |Invidia | The Girl Of My Best Friend | Right There | Not Much of a Sex God

series:

fan: manager yang! i miss niannian 😭😭😭

yangyang: (posts this pic)

username “azkaban escapee beauty”: what’s the meaning of this? even at this time, you’re still in the mood to post on weibo? i asked you to go out and buy baby formula for our child and you’re still like this? fine, i can only stay home and work hard to raise the child while you’re out and about. let’s divorce, there’s no love.

fan: kiddo, how did you grow up so much 🥺