obsessed with the way dean winchester would never in a million years have expected to fall in love with someone like castiel. that repressed bitch thought he was going to be having one night stands with pamela barnes types at bars until he died at age 30. instead he died and went to hell and got brought back by a 4930958340 year old male-presenting angel who doesn’t understand social cues and now it’s been over a decade and he’s barely had sex since. i’m going to scream

"oh, she knows" is so devastating to me because she does, she can't not know but she wants to hear, needs to hear it because otherwise it'll never go farther than fond looks shared between them, kisses on the cheek and forehead, and handholding for longer than necessary. she needs him to confront his feelings the way she so desperately wants to because she has so much love for him inside of her and she wants to share it with him fully but he can never take that last step. it's heavy, his love for her, and she's strong enough to carry it but he can't burden her with it. it's bad enough he's let it get this far but how could he not love her?