burn me out

open  :  m / nb. muse  :  lee ’ morgan ’ minseok , college student mass communications major & trust fund baby.   plot  :  morgan and your muse have been best friends for many years now and morgan has had a crush on your muse for the longest time. for once his the one whose all flustered when his normally the biggest fuck boy on campus.

it had been quite sometime since the two had been friends and morgan had been more than grateful for having the other male in his life not less because he had the biggest crush on the other and obviously he had tried his best to conceal the fact to the latter. now normally this sort of thing would happened to the male as it would usually be the other way around with a long line of people begging to have him in their bed but they were different things were different with them especially given their long history together he trusted the other male wholeheartedly and would do anything to have them in his arms. like previously stated morgan tried his hardest to conceal the fact that he had a crush on them that wasn’t really the case it was quite the opposite actually as the male would be more withdrawn and not his usual loud & obnoxious self especially around the latter or when they had been brought up with their other friends so much that he had stopped talking all together to his supposed best friend.

now whilst at a party of a mutual friend of theirs morgan was enjoying himself drinking and mingling with the other people at the party he was having the time of his life or so it seemed but some things were weighing heavily on his mind at that moment in time. letting out a soft sigh as he looked over the balcony of the house taking a drag of the lit cigarette before he blow out the smoke turning his head to the door only to find the other male stepping out from the party. at first he didn’t want to even talk to the other but things were too awkward not to ‘ hey i-i’m fine just came out to take a smoke break. ‘ he lied faking a smile towards the male.       

people drifted apart from their best friends all the time, or that’s what skyler told himself as the rift between him and morgan began to get wider and wider until their friendship just . . . stopped existing completely. rationally he was aware that it could have been a lot of outlying factors : different majors, different schedules, the stress of college in general but more often than not he found himself trying to figure out what he had done to make the other decide he was no longer worth spending time with. 

        “   yah  !  it’s  not  done  yet  ”   his   voice  struggles  to  fight  off  the  crowd’s  loud  cheers  but  , his  voice  stands  no  match  to  the  cheering  and  the  loud  music  from  the  speaker  .   protesting  proves  to  be  no  use  so  he  was  left  with  no  choice  but  follow  the  male  .  “  perfectly  ?  i  wanted  to  finish  the  set  .  the  last  part  is  often  the  best  part  .  was  it  really  necessary  to  leave  so  early  ?  i  mean  you  have  the  pass  and  all  . it’s  not  like  there’s  a  time  limit  on  it  ”   he  lightly  tugs  on  the    other  as  an  attempt  to  calm  him  down  . the   other’s  voice  is  already  cracking  and  he  can’t  imagine  how  sore  his  throat  would  be in  the  morning . well  ,  it’d  be  a  good  thing  as  well  since  for  once  the  other  might  stay  quiet  for  a  long  period  of  time .  when  the  other  told  him  that   they  will  be  meeting  kwang  .  he  did  not  expect  it  to  be  this  close .  he  thought  it’d  be  the  usual  meet  and   greet  where  they  would  have  to  fall  in  line  and  be  able  to  say  hi  to  kwang  then  leave  .   but  then  again  ,  he  should  have  expected  more  from  beomseok  .  he  does  have  connections  after  all  .  “  oh  ”  he  said  in  shock  when  they  entered  the  dressing  room  with  kwang  resting . the  kwang  he  saw  earlier  on  stage  looked  so  different  behind  the  curtains  .  the  other  deems  to  give  off such  a  welcoming  and  soft  aura  .  the  intimidation  he  feels  when  the   other   is  on  stage  somehow  disappeared  .  when  beomseok  let  go  of  his  hand  ,  he  finds  himself  trying  to  reach  for  the  other’s  hand  once  again  to  take  hold  of  it  but  the  other  was  too  quick  to   run  off  .   “  who  me  ?  ”  he  points  at  himself  still  shock  at  how  close  he  is  with  the  other  .  “  uh  ”  he  scratches  the  back  of  his  head  .  “  well of  course  i  enjoyed  it  ”  he  shyly  responded  ,  voice  cracking  due  to  nervousness  .  “  it  was  very  good  .  i  just  wish  i  was  able  to  finish  the  whole  set  .  beomseok  was  too  excited  so  we  had  to  leave  early  but yeah  ,  you  were  amazing  ”  he  shyly  added  as  he  looks  down  .

the look of shock on jeongun’s face when he realized they had just let themselves into the idol’s dressing room brought a smile to his face and a laugh bubbling up, which he tried to cover with a poorly done cough. “ surprise? “ he said carefully as he sat up, head poking out from on top of the couch and seeing jeongun’s hand reach out for him, he leaned over the back of the couch and reached out for the other’s hand, pulling him over to him. “ i guess i can introduce you, “ he said, one hand lacing his fingers between jeongun’s the other gesturing to the male curled up in a chair a few feet away. “ jeongun meet ground zero, aka do kwang. kwang, meet best friend lee jeongun. “ he said and with the introductions out of the way, he laid back down, arm held up awkwardly so that he could continue holding the other’s hand. 

his ears were ringing, the rest of the world muted out by just how loud it had been in the concert venue as the sudden quietness of hit as beomseok dragged jeongun out of the crowded venue. the performance continued on, the final song on its last chorus and in order to escape from there after it ended, he had slipped out a little bit earlier than necessary to avoid the crowds, fingers linking through the male’s beside him and pulling him along up the aisles as everybody continued to scream-sing and dance along. his body practically buzzed with excitement, the starstruck feeling something he still hadn’t gotten rid of despite almost a decade of being the youngest sibling to not one, but TWO idols within YBS Entertainment’s company. each step was almost like a bounce, the excitement building as he flashed his stage pass at the burly men standing guard in front of the doors which led to the backstage area. “ i don’t know how, maybe just years of attending concerts but i timed our exit PERFECTLY. “ his voice was hoarse, cracking a bit as he spoke due to all the screaming and yelling he’d done himself as the venue halls quickly starting to fill up while they slipped into the back and almost unconsciously leading them to the idol’s dressing room. 

            “  no  ,  i  was  just   kidding   .  do  you  really  think  you  can  hurt   me  ?  you’re  a  whole  ass  baby  ”  he teases   the   other  .   quickly  ,  he  shielded  himself  with  his  arms  just  in  case  the  other  tries  anything  .  the other’s  reaction  was  golden  and  he  wished  he  had  it  on  camera  .  “  why  do   you  keep  hitting  me  ?!  ”  with  a  cheery  laugh  he  asks  the  other  ,  though  it   didn’t  hurt  ;   he  felt  the    need  the  rub  the  side  of  his  shoulder  .   “  i  know  ”  he  whispered  back  with  a  mocking  smile   .  “  that  makes  it  even  more  exciting  ”  he added  ,  determined  to  make  the  other  even  more  flustered  than  he  already  was  .  a  feigned  look  of  offense   graces   his  small  feature  .  a  hand  dramatically  settles  on  his  chest  at  the  other’s  rejection  of  his  offer   .  “  you’re  hurting  my  feelings  !  there’s  no  need  to  sound  disgusted   and  i  know  you  want  it  .  don’t  be  shy  ”  eyebrows  wiggles  up  and  down  as  he  continues   to  tease  the  other  .  when  the  other  agreed , he  finally  stopped  .  a  triumphant  smile  gracing  his  lips  .  “   psh  !  sure  , it’s  not  because  of  my  ”  he  copies  the  other’s  gesture  earlier  .   “  even  though  you’re  so  quick  to  agree  when  my  ”  copies  once  again  the  other’s  gesture  ,  “  was  on  the  table  ”   he  couldn’t  help  himself  and  tease  the  other  again  .  “  since  you  already  said  yes  ,  there’s  no  backsies  .  my  dad  arranged  this  dinner  for  us  next  week  .  we  have  plenty  of  time  to  prepare  and  make  shit  up  .  oh  !  should  we  say  we  met  at  a  gay  bar  and  you  were  a  stripper  there  ?  i  bet  my dad  would  be  so  mad  ”  he  lightly  shakes  his  head   in  amusement  as  he  pictures   the   old  man  growing  red  from  anger  .

            “  i  know  !   ”   he  proudly   agrees  with  his  nose  scrunched  up  and  a  cheery  smile  plastered  on  his face  .   with  pure  amusement  he  watches  the  other  struggle  to  defend  his  words  .  “  cute  ”  he  mumbles  under  his  breath  with  a  light  shake  of  his  head  .   “  yah  !  what  was  that   for  ?  ”   he  questions  the  other with  a  pout  on  his   lip  .  he  reaches  down  to  rub  his  leg  .  “  you’re  quite  violent  ,  aren’t  you  ?  ”  he  teases  the  other  .   “  okay  , okay  ,  i’m  sorry  ”  unable  to  help  himself   ;  he  reaches  to  pinch  the   other’s  cheeks  .  “  you’re  just  too  cute   when  you  get  all  nervous  and  flustered  .  ”   eyebrows  furrowed  at  the  other’s  comment  .  “  a  little  nicer  ?  how   nice  do  you  want  me  to  be  ?  i’m  literary  so  nice  to  you  all  the  time  .  what  ?  do  you  want  me  to  give  you   my  kidney  ?  my  lungs  ?  what  ?  what  else  do  you  want me  to  give  …  ”  he   pauses  .  a  mischievous  grin  forming  on  his  lips  .  he  slowly  leans  forward  and  asked  the  other  to  do  the  same  before  whispering  …  “  my  dick  ?   ”