serendipity

Louie, who didn't want to be a father but got exited with the accident baby (winkwinkwink), whose life entered into the addiction circle when he lost the woman he was married to.

Louie, whose emergency contact was the hospital because the Pitt was the only place that he had.

And we know Langdon is having marital problems. Look, I want kingdon to happen, and I could talk for hours about how the show is telling a romance story, but here, in this case, I think it's showing us how Langdon thinks that the break of his marriage would imply him getting worse.

There's a lot of talk about how Mel is Becca's caregiver, but not enough about how her mother died of cancer, somewhere 6/7 years before s1. She probably spent a lot of time in the hospital with her sick mother, talking about the next steps, how to take care of her sister, how to be responsible, all while her mother was dying. Mel didn’t have time to grief, to be sad, to understand what was happening to her. Taking into account her age, she didn’t even take time off school - just go go go. 

(I think a lot about the last scene of s1 we see of Mel. After the pittfest shooting, literally hell for your first day at a new job, Mel is very visibly tired but locks in and immediately goes into caretaker mode when Becca appears - she even suggest two options for food and a movie she hates)

When someone dies in the hospital, Mel revives her whole experience, and doesn’t even have time to process what it means. 

Suddenly, Becca is sick. She’s back in the hospital, with her only family member in a gown. It probably brings a lot of memories to Mel. She's a protector, a listener, all she thinks she needs is to keep her sister safe. 

But Becca is living her life. She has a partner and a place of belonging beyond Mel’s control. She’s finding happiness outside everything Mel has built the last 6 years. Mel’s not Becca's mother, she's her sister, and she should be a supporter alongside her, not a protector.

I don’t think Mel necessarily needs to find hobbies or who she is besides being a takecarer. I think she needs to grieve. Grief her family, the opportunities of love and partnership that she never got because she was too busy with school and a sister with special needs. To process the trauma that she never dealt with.

And how does the Pitt tell us, all the time, how to process grief? With friends and family. Mel’s has neither. 

Robby, whose mother abandoned him, his father probably never present. His grandparents are dead (or like… 100 years old). He doesn’t have any family left. Robby, whose mentor, who was like a father figure to him, died 4 years ago. I don’t think I need to write about Robby’s lack of time to grief, the show is about this.

S1 is all about Robby’s grief, but Adamson died very close to Mel’s mother. 

And Langdon? Robby's golden boy. Robby saw a young doctor with a very pregnant wife and a future that Robby always wanted, staying late and being capable and intelligent and also funny. The last 4 years have been great, he works hard, he's fast, smart. A great doctor, a future teacher. 

At the start of his R4 he fucks up. He lied, endangered the patients and betrayed him. Suddenly, Robby cannot project himself in Langdon. He’s not his kid, he’s not his family. Langdon is just a man who makes mistakes. Robby needs to grieve the relationship he built in his head with Langdon. 

It's 2026, it's a shitty day for everyone but especially for Mel and Robby. Both feel betrayed, the people who were supposed to be on their hands fell through the cracks. Robby cannot understand Langdon and Mel cannot understand Becca. Both are individuals with their faults, mistakes and thoughts. The relationship is broken, and in need of remake. 

Mel and Robby need to create their individuality without the relationship with others. Mel is no longer Becca's protector. Robby is not Langdon's teacher. But they don't know who they are.

Robby trying to find his identity by being a motorcycle guy is so funny to me. I did the same 3 years ago. The wind, the velocity. The reasonable danger, the controlled chaos.