Diapers 24/7

No shade to any and all other types of dominating but I have a huge affinity for humiliation where it's low stakes, light-hearted and fun :) For example:

"Hey stinker, come over here really quick, let me check you."

"Let's get you changed. No, I'm not mad! If I expected you to be able to hold it you wouldn’t have a diaper on cutie."

"It's okay if you had an accident, dork - I'm not exactly surprised at this point. Come here, lets see if you need a change"

"You really didn't notice that you peed yourself? Adorable"

"You're lucky I'm around baby, or you'd never know when you'd need to change. Which is often by the way 😇"

"Hey! This is Ash, she's my girlfriend! - just to get it out of the way, she's wearing a diaper right now since she is struggling with her control - no worries, we have it handled!"

*Pats my wet diapered butt* "Whoa kiddo - did you have a couple more accident's since last I checked?"

"Did you try to make it to the potty? Okay well that's all we can ask for! Maybe next time, stinker 🤭"

"Girl.. you wet your training diaper twice yesterday, I wouldn't exactly say we're close to fully trained"

"I'm going to grab more stickers for the bedwetting chart at the store - I'm only going to get raincloud stickers because we still have a plenty of unused sunshine stickers..."

"I hope you don't mind I told them about your diapers since we are going to be staying the night. No, it's fine, they don't care - its not exactly a secret at this point that you're still training."

"I wish you could see your face when I notice that you had an accident - you become such a blushy mess 😍"

"Do you 'think' you had an accident or do you know you had an accident and are too embarrassed to admit it?"

"Uh oh - soggy morning kiddo? That's alright, we'll try again tomorrow - Make sure to put the raincloud on the chart so we can keep track :)"

"I'd totally believe you if you weren't wearing a unicorn onesie with a soaked diaper right now"

"I'm not going to change you yet, dork - I know you're not done having accidents today"

"Come here baby, your waistband is poking out"

"Yeah she is! Come here Ash!" As I walk over, she flips up my skirt to show my used diaper "See? Told you! She needs them since she can't always hold it when she has to go.. as you can see!"

"I'll give you $10 right now if you are dry"

"It honestly makes sense that you're a bedwetter - it fits your vibe :)"

"I haven't seen your bunny stuffie in a while - did you guys break up? 😉"

*Grabs the front of my very wet diaper* "I dunno, does this feel like being a big girl to you?"

*a hissing sound starts coming from my side of the couch* "Wow you really had to go, huh baby?"

"Did you just piss your diaper while sitting in my lap?"

"Next time you feel an accident coming along let me know - I wanna put my hand on it feel you losing control 😈 that is, if you are able to notice when you have to go 🤭"

"Hold still, you are fussier to change than the kids I used to babysit"

"You're being awfully sassy towards the girl who decides if you get changed or not"

"No way girl. Those stripes are gone - wetness indicated!"

"I've never seen someone so happy to lay across my lap - its so cute"

"You're soaked butt is like a little pissy stressball that I can squeeze whenever I want to, because lets face it, you're not dry that often."

"I put your name as DPRGRL for bowling - hope that's chill 😘"

"You'd think after all these accidents, you'd stop getting so embarrassed you little dweeb 😋"

"Well, lets be clear - you're wearing diapers because you can't be trusted to hold it. You're wearing those diapers because they're so cute on you :) hope that clears it up!"

"I honestly just assume you're always a little wet. And I'm usually right lol"

"Yes, but counter point: You're wearing a diaper that you just peed in so."

"Hey cutie, wake up - I think you're dreaming of waterfalls"

"I don't want you to lose all of your control, but it is really cute to watch you fill your pampers so. Either way is good with me baby but it seems like we're headed in that direction ;)"

"I'm gonna go to the bathroom - wanna come and take notes?"

"Yeah no, I asked my friends, none of us have had an accident in the last month so you're on your own there sweetie :)"

"Hey, there's no shame in pissing your pants so often and so much that your girlfriend is compelled to start putting you in diapers and tracking your loss of control until you become a full-time bedwetter and pamper pisser - it's totally normal and reasonable.. totally😐."

"Hey stinker - got enough room in that thing for one more episode?"

"I could hold my breath longer than you can stay dry"

"Oh shut up, you love this."

Etc.

There's probably so much more but I can't think of anything else so.

Diaper Time

Y'all didn't think I was gonna put out that potty propaganda and not refute it! Here's a song all about how diapers are the best! Make sure to sing along, stinker. 💩

Lyrics:

Gosh, this is going to be a long one, but when are they ever anything but? Ha ha. In this update, I’m actually going to focus on just changes with my bladder that I’ve experienced and the thoughts and feelings that have come along with them. 

The first talking point is of course to mention the biggest change I’ve experienced since my last update, and that is that I only get extremely short notice before I wet now. A little backstory for those not fully up to date, for quite a while I haven’t been able to tell how full my bladder is at any one time. This is quite an old change, it happened back when I was about two months in or so I think, maybe even earlier. 

Well, what I’ve started to experience is a kind of a continuation of that I think. Instead of feeling a minute or two in advance that I’ll probably wet soon, I now only know I’m going to wet right before it happens. Like, I’ll feel absolutely nothing at all, and then my bladder will kind of feel tight and there’ll be a bit of a light pressure on it all of a sudden, and then within like 5-15 seconds on average (sometimes longer and sometimes shorter with basically no warning at all) I’ll be wetting. This is becoming the norm for how I wet now (excluding my regular leaks and drips) and occurs all throughout the day.

To be clear here, while I get very little warning that it’s about to happen, I think I could probably still stop myself from wetting if I wanted to. 

Maybe. Possibly.

I guess I don’t really know for sure.

A big part of me knows that it would be really valuable to test my control here and see if I could stop myself from wetting now that I’m so deep into it, but I just haven’t been able to convince myself to try it honestly. Whenever I consider trying to stop myself from wetting I start to get really uncomfortable and nervous, and my mind starts imagining just how painful it would probably be to attempt, so, unfortunately, we’re just going to have to not have that information for now, or at least not until I can persuade myself to do it anyway. 

This whole change to wetting in seconds of knowing that it’s going to happen has been a massive deal to me personally though, and it’s honestly something that scared me quite a bit when it first started happening because I started thinking like, you know, how deep have I gone here? Is this really what I should be doing to myself? Has my body just completely given in now? 

That combined with the fact that I already leak small amounts all the time without any provocation or warning or say in it, and the fact that I’ve started noticing little droplets on the ground in the brief moments whenever I’m not in a diaper or that I’ve started leaking on myself while I’m changing, I’m not going to lie, it’s been a bit of a distressing adjustment period to be perfectly honest.

I guess the reason it was distressing at first was that when you combine all those things I just mentioned together, they kind of add up don’t they? If I’m not leaking repeatedly then I’m wetting without much warning, and if I’m not wetting without much warning then I’m dripping without being able to tell until I notice the spots on the ground or on me. It paints quite the picture of a body that is well, failing. It wasn’t until I kind of reframed the whole thing in my head and started to view it as my body finally getting the message that we wanted to be this way very deeply and we were now working together as a team instead of against one another for once that it started seeming like an actual positive. 

You know, I’ve heard a couple of times from people that Kali, a person here on Tumblr who has fully untrained, has given the advice to people before not to untrain themselves. At first, I never understood this, it didn’t make any sense, in my opinion, to tell people to not do what they deeply desired to do, and while I still don’t agree with it, I do completely understand it now.

This is an extremely serious thing to do to yourself, with very serious consequences. I’m not going to tell you not do it, because I still believe that this can be the right thing for some people, including myself, but gosh, you know, please put some very deep thought into this. If it’s not the right thing for you but you are determined enough for just six to twelve months to pursue it (which is not a lot of time), you could very easily mess up your life. I’ve started to adjust to this new state of my bladder and my body, and even really like the changes now, but just imagine if you didn’t.

This past week has been a very tense time of self-reflection and self-evaluation and while I’m sure some people are going to dismiss me and say that I just didn’t mentally prepare myself enough for the reality of having such little, if any, control left (they are correct in saying this), I also feel like you kind of can’t really prepare yourself fully for this.

I do my best to get across what untraining is like and how it feels gradually losing all of my control, but at the end of the day, I just can’t properly convey what it’s like to live that, to experience it and live with it every single day.

I’ll admit I used to get a bit internally annoyed at the people who would message me saying that they themselves were starting untraining, and they were so excited and so determined in that first moment and we would talk and I’d give whatever advice I could and it seemed like everything was going to go great, only for almost all of them to stop within a week for such small reasons like having dinner with a family member or not wanting to wear to work or whatever. Looking back now though, it’s like, I’m so glad that those people found out so early on that untraining and wearing diapers 24/7 was not for them. There’s no off switch when you untrain, so it’s best to just get off the ride as soon as you feel like you should. 

This has probably seemed like a super negative and unfun update for the most part, but just with my recent experiences and my own personal considerations of whether or not this was right for me, I felt like I really needed to talk about all this stuff and get it out there.