TW: ED

does anyone else go through phases where they’re like “food is fuel!” 🏃‍♀️ and eat a ton of good, healthy food for a few weeks but then they gain weight and are like “nope. time to starve myself”

if i eat too much tomorrow i’m literally gonna retrigger my bulimia idec anymore

guys i’ve literally gained ten pounds idk why i thought i could eat regularly without gaining weight 😭😭😭 time to restart my ed 🏃‍♀️

i tried to recover for like a month but it isn’t working

guys eating normal meals is so much fun. i still don’t eat lunch but eating like a little snack before school and eating what i want when i get home feels amazing- i have more energy, food tastes so good, i don’t feel that guilty, and my mom isn’t worried about be anymore

i’ve been trying to recover because swim team starts soon and i need energy but it’s so hard

i ate kinda a lot today because my mom and dad are starting to notice

my dad said i looked like i lost weight :) but my mom making me weigh myself and not go below a certain number

is it bad that my lips are tingling and i feel dizzy