The Soulless System

"i didn't need no imaginary friends i had Screaming Joe right here !"

"I love this website I love it when people tell us what's wrong with them"

CHARACTER ADDED!

I love it when people tell

us what’s wrong with them”

This is very stupid but it’s genuinely what I think about every time I consider skipping dinner after work

One of these has the moral standing of a cartoon villain, the other might save the country.

Welcome to British politics.

Well that's not staying in the tags

"This is an LGBT safe space. Of COURSE I fully support individuals who identify as transgender and their right to self-determination! I just think that transitioning is a very serious choice and should be heavily regulated. And there could be a lot of harm in exposing cis children to such topics, so we should be really careful about when it is appropriate to mention trans issues or have too much trans visibility."

apparently he (who through my drunken memory I remember only as Earl) liked some woman, and she told him that he wasn't cultured enough and needed to attend his first drag show (she also flaked on him)

Now I'm reasonably androgynous and was wearing makeup, a short leather skirt, and black heeled boots, but still when this guy came up to me when I was standing off alone and asked "So. Do you come here often?" with a very earnest expression, I thought. Surely not. This guy doesn't think I'm a straight woman does he????

Anyway I start talking with this guy and he has no idea what the fuck is going on but he is just a very kind and earnest dude and asked a lot of questions (while asking if it was alright if he asked those questions). I track down my husband and friends and I'm like y'all. We need to make sure that Earl has a Good Fucking Time tonight.

Man was completely out of his depth. At one point they put on a puppy auction to raise money for Pride, that started with a 6 ft drag queen in all her glory leading a leather pup out on a leash to the tune of that damned RSPCA "in the arms of the angels" song

We look at Earl. Nervous. He squints, laughs, and then goes "I was wondering why people were dressed like that!" He turned to me and asked "So they're like dogs?" And I said yeah pretty much. And he just chuckled and went "Yeah I thought so with the tails! Never seen this before!"

When the first drag king came out, Earl looked at me wide eyed and went "There's a dude version too?!" And I said yeah they're called drag kings. And he said, low, "Drag kings."

During one of the queens performances, he frowned, shook his head and told me, "Your legs are better than hers." in a tone that implied he thought there was some travesty taking place and I should also be getting paid

When he found out I was there with my husband (and that I am not a woman) he profusely apologized and said "I'm so sorry, it's dark in here and I thought you were a hot chick! I wouldn't have said nothing if I knew you had a husband, I'm so sorry about that."

When beemovie invited me to the dance floor with him later and I still had a drink in my hand, Earl said "Oh don't worry about that I can hold your drink, you get on out there and shake your ass with your husband!" Then before we left, Earl bought me drinks for "Putting up with me all night and answering everything. Y'all helped me have a great time tonight."

like. You gotta recognize there's going to people who have never had interacted outside of their of their own community. This includes you. And just because your community is familiar with all the right vocabulary and how to correctly say something, it doesn't mean they're actually going to support you. If someone like Earl shows up, confused and out of their depth but kind and curious and earnest, you gotta have patience and truck through the small things, so when he goes back to his friends and his coworkers and they snicker asking how the drag show was, he can genuinely talk about how included we tried to make him feel and that he had a great time

Officer: *Emerges from the water with a grunt* You there, Sir!! I certainly hope you’ve got a fishing license!

Guy: *Panicking* Wha, no, I don’t!

Officer: Oh no?

Guy: *Screaming*

i dont need people to know what to say. i don't need advice. i dont need sympathy. i don't need 'i'm so sorry this is happening to you' ive had plenty of that stuff over the years and i dont care for it anymore. it does nothing for me. it bounces right off.

i need action. i need help. literally anything. there's so many easy ways to help me that cost nothing.

click the share button on my youtube videos. you dont have to share the link for that to boost my videos in the algorithm. like the videos. set the playlists to run while you do other things. you can leave them on mute, i don't care.

boost the posts here. share the music, tell people what my situation is and that im working very hard to get out of it. tell them i need stable income, and any contribution helps. if they say they wish they could help but can't afford it/dont have a job, mention the no-cost ways they can help me that are in this post.

link the bandcamp and patreon. on reddit, instagram, tiktok, discord, fucking facebook, i dont care where. literally anywhere. throw fliers into the streets idk. i cant do all that because im just one person surviving a nightmare, and making the music on top of it.

i have instagram and tiktok as well but i don't have the energy to post there much. search for timeless interval and you should find both of them. both of them point to my bandcamp and patreon so even views on those could help. if any of them happen to get a lot of followers, i would divert some energy to marketing on those.

if you can spare anything, join the patreon. donations are great, but the patreon income is what is really going to bring me out of this. even $1/mo is fine. even joining as a free member could help. it takes a few seconds to make an account if you don't have one already.

bandcamp sales are good too. don't wait until bandcamp friday unless there's one happening within the week (next one is august).

i'm still asking for donations occasionally because these income streams are not enough to even feed me every day. if you donate regularly, i appreciate you, but consider joining the patreon instead. i will still get your contributions but in a form that's easier to keep track of and count as progress. i can't show a landlord donation income, but i can show patreon and bandcamp income.

i'm closer this month to being able to sustain myself with the income rather than asking for donations, so soon enough the ebegging will actually slow down signficantly and be reserved for extra things like getting to important appointments or times when the bandcamp sales dip, as long as i get enough income to not need it anymore