ARTHUR

im making more bullshit

random stabbing pain in my handbro

not even tired i needa fix my sleep schedule. i mean even if i was tired i couldnt sleep rn anyway (<-fell asleep at 7-8pm again + in Pain so i cant sleep)

also prolly not any noticable heart issues considering no call back after my ECG or whatever fucking heart test i had to do. so like. i might be perfectly healthy and faking Everything

also back on the topic of me potentionally being low iron☝️they havent called after my bloodtest, which signifies im probably NOT low iron.

guy who fixates on health issues in a anxiety inducing way remembers he may have health issues. what happens next will shock you (go down an internet rabbithole of untrusted sources)

i think every interaction i have with you where i clarify im not something/not doing something or apologize for doing something im not doing (example; all the times i apologize for guilt tripping you when APPARENTLY IM NOT??) (im still sorry if you look back and think i was) (because i mightve been unintentionally) proves i have SOME type of Thing(negative) going on with my Brain that makes me think im evil and fucked up (negative). and its really funny to me but also kinda sad and also kinda embarassing

honest to god this will sound parasocial. i swear its not. i just cant pronounce words. i have had to practice saying your name. i had to PRACTICE saying "ARthur". which is why i might empthasize the R sound when i say your name. i still have to practice sometimes.💔