a lot of hard decisions have been made in a short time of space, but too much back-and-forth thinking has happened for too long. people have been asking me how i have been and i've just been an open book. no, i'm not fine. i love how this song just explains it all. thank you coldplay.
to sum things up these have been my struggles for the past few months...
Lack of motivation - procrastination
No self-confidence (even though i'm not a shy person, i critique my work harshly)
it took a stern word and some strangely positive-negative words of encouragement from my dad to do something.
being the season of easter i did some reflecting and came to a conclusion...we will never be perfectly ready to start something or anything, that's why we just have to do it and along the way we will learn. fear stopped me though. but now i looked at this from the point of the apostles who Jesus chose. they were never really ready to serve in the first place. there must have been fear. to drop everything and follow this man who had world-changing ideals. they didn't know their future and they weren't perfect in their ways, but still they went ahead. the bravest thing to do is to face forward and walk knowing that your fears are in front of you. but know there is someone behind you, be it God, family or friends who truly love you (though they may show it in weird ways) and are there to help you overcome.
So as Nike would have it, JUST DO IT.
