L'espoir

The idea of being able to "soloventure" even if just for 2 weeks sounds invigorating to me. To be able to truly live on my own and only have myself to rely on will be a refreshing change from having a crutch on my family and friends. 

I'm so excited to test myself, to see where I can go, and to see where I end up. It's going to be fun, scary, overall pretty fucken awesome.  

I'm ready to be fully independent in these next 2 weeks. No one to rely on but myself. No one to baby me or take care of me, but myself. I'm in this relationship with myself for the long run. And I'm finally taking charge. 

I used to feel that way. I would say that I'm good at compartmentalizing my emotions and feelings when necessary, and so, I unknowingly but hurtfully pushed myself to cast the sadness and anger I feel to another part of my mind and being. And instead, I immersed myself into the safety net, the comfort of school, work and spending time with family and friends.  What I did not acknowledge when I did this was that being able to experience sadness and anger is all apart of the human experience. It's okay to cry until your eyes are swollen or yell into a pillow and scream at the world when you're angry. You're human. You feel things. 

And experiencing emotion does not mean solely being happy, smiling, and laughing every minute of everyday. We need to embrace that we're capable of feeling a range of emotions. 

Sadness and anger are not signs of weakness. They just are apart of how we are wired as human beings. So long as we do not allow this anger and sadness to transform into a harmful act against those we love. So long as we do not allow these "negative" emotions to consume our being.  So long as we realize that it's not the end of the world when we are angry at someone or something beyond belief, that there's always some sort of light at the end of the tunnel. That there is a next step forward in this journey. 

No pictures allowed? Challenge accepted and conquered.